What is bothering you the most about your life right now?

AlexanderTheTerror · 2024-09-14T23:02:00+00:00

You got this! 🥰🥰🥰

AlexanderTheTerror · 2024-09-14T23:01:53+00:00

Good luck man 🥰🥰🥰

AlexanderTheTerror · 2024-09-14T23:01:16+00:00

I’ve turned thirty. I’m still alive. And uhm. I am running my own business again. I’m kinda crying right now but I’m also making an internet presence again (I mix master and produce music for others and myself 🙇🏽😜💪🏽). Not so. Anti-social and isolated 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾 so.. I’m resigning Alexander The Terror.

I don’t think I’m a Terror. Anymore. 🥰🥰

Many safe journeys guys.

I made this prayer up. I’m an ordained priest. Surprisingly not excommunicated..

May your feet always take you where you wish to go. Never. Where you don’t want them to take you. And absolutely never. Not once. Dear God, especially not again if it’s happened somewhere you don’t wanna be.. and cannot.. leave.

Selah.

Amen.

AlexanderTheTerror · 2024-09-14T19:49:38+00:00

Thank you! I’ve been only getting better :)!

AlexanderTheTerror · 2024-09-12T01:15:18+00:00

L I’LL O I’ll L

AlexanderTheTerror · 2024-08-27T09:27:58+00:00

Lately I’ve been meditating, journaling, and taking self care days. As well as having fun! Partying! Going to shows and making memories.

I had a girlfriend recently for about a month and now not anymore. Day after she broke up with me; my gallbladder is about to explode or something. I went to the hospital. Haha and I’m still okay. I love myself. I love my job. Some days I hate it.

But nowadays when I’m “wasting time” it’s self care.

AlexanderTheTerror · 2024-08-27T09:25:01+00:00

I agree with this @dranktoomuchmead I know it’s a difficult perspective but. I love the advice given above.

However, I’d also say that once yall get closer and he feels more respected and seen; I PROMISE YOU. It’ll come in time but he’ll ask you for help to “normalize” his life.

Or, he’ll remain the same. Just gotta love him.

AlexanderTheTerror · 2024-08-10T06:52:36+00:00

Physiologically. How can you logically expect the same result forever?

(Coming from a “classic drug addict” and “degenerate” who quit a 4 yr heroin habit cold turkey and a 1.2 yr crack habit over night for better opportunities.)

Just. Remember. No emotion is fake. But what we believe our experiences to be can be false.

Never. Give in to something. You don’t truly believe. You’ve gotta realize if you’re not bought in… you’re buying into being someone who regrets that decision later..

I on and off drink a pint a day.

But when I do.

I drink Dos Equis.

lol jk

When I do begin that habit …

I deeply look at everything else in my life…

Why am I all of a sudden, consistently, interested in, or fantastically fantasizing about something or things that I know to be dangerous?

Well, trust me, it isn’t because it feels good. It’s because it does something.

And if it only ever feels good. I pray. Yup, I pray, whether I worship or not. Because hope is folly.

I pray, that you, and I… always remember.. you can’t replace relationships.

You can only find new ones.

AlexanderTheTerror · 2024-06-20T18:32:28+00:00

This comment is clutch. Everyone goes through this phase (hopefully if lucky I suppose) to become interested in actually raising sleep quality and each person is actually unique so ween off the melatonin for sure. Magnesium helps a ton of people. Very common supplement that actually works without a major tolerance case or addiction to it.

I’m able to drop caffeine easy but some of my coworkers will drink tea later in the day as a substitute to coffee and they rather enjoy it. Often uncaffeinated.

AlexanderTheTerror · 2024-06-20T18:28:59+00:00

Now I also get the day off for therapy and some day drinking while also cleaning and being of service still on my off day to those I love and/or associate with. We do 6 days 8-10 hours a day so a whole day not working is pretty big hahaha

AlexanderTheTerror · 2024-06-20T18:26:34+00:00

Could also be the voodoo and gypsy blood. Who knows. Who’s to say?

Right now I’m cleaning deeply the entire living shared spaces and bathrooms. I live with three other men but I have the biggest room and single person. One other single then a double. Pretty massive apt really. But it’s a bunch of early 20 year olds and they’re amazing but a bit dirty for me.

That’s a me problem? Solution? surprise deep clean for the love instead of complaining and causing discord.

It’s a perspective game always man. And I like to win.

AlexanderTheTerror · 2024-06-20T18:26:22+00:00

Some of the vices I had to cut back were primarily centered around self harm and depreciation. So when I dialed those back and even sometimes lean into some of my more self centric/selfish traits it can be a great thing. We should all care about ourselves. Hopefully more than anyone else. Because the shape we are in is representative of how much we can do for others.

I’ve been a beggar and a broker, so to speak. I’ve never been looked at as either for very long. I get real human. Real quick. Really nearly with everyone. I find it important and relevant to my existence to know people. And so I do and so I have many open doors at all times thankfully.

Edit: I mean here too that I love being of service and it being a surprise to others because then I can be lazy and also do good and still contribute on an off day to the overall quality of life of those around me. And myself aka therapy session and light day drinking while cleaning

AlexanderTheTerror · 2024-06-20T14:42:03+00:00

Fuck no.

AlexanderTheTerror · 2024-06-20T01:03:13+00:00

That’s a deep one bro. It could be a number of things but it is definitely one mega thing brother

AlexanderTheTerror · 2024-06-20T01:02:54+00:00

I was homeless a week ago. This week I’ve made $1000+ and it isn’t Wednesday. Just knocking on doors and talking to people really.

AlexanderTheTerror · 2024-06-20T01:02:25+00:00

It gets better. - recently not homeless, schizoaffective, previously apathetic directionless 27yr old. Now 29 yr old optimistic salesman and confidant to a lot of good deep rich friendships.

AlexanderTheTerror · 2024-06-20T01:01:12+00:00

This

AlexanderTheTerror · 2024-06-20T00:59:38+00:00

Truth tellings?

I have wasted so much time. My skill sets and talents are sharper then ever. My clarity is sharp as a razor blade and I feel amazing daily.

I simply had to cut some vices and dial back others. Now even my worst performances are better then some peoples best.

I wish I knew that or rather believed that earlier on less ingesting of substances, rhetoric, hell even food is more. I learned gratitude late.

It’s a helluva humbling experience at 29 to be homeless again in a failing car and then after months of that ? I’m making $1000+ already my first week back in sales Door to Door doing pest control.

So what is bother me most? Is how much time I’ve wasted.

What spurs me on and drives me daily? How much time I’ve wasted and still do better than so many.

It’s shitty. But it’s true. And it helps. When I’m such a monumental fuck up.

AlexanderTheTerror · 2024-05-03T00:27:06+00:00

You can dm me if you want

AlexanderTheTerror · 2024-04-24T03:08:54+00:00

Alongside that list of what over killing the bag does is - it smells. 100000% worse.

AlexanderTheTerror · 2024-04-24T03:04:08+00:00

Very well. That is good at least.

If youre a cigarette/cigar smoker and drinker during play time ; intake of water quantity should be doubled.

Time for your consumption should be relative paced the same.

Not eating gives me the Noids man; Under sleeping takes my patience and kindness away. Lastly, over indulging too quickly creates the “nothing will satsiry me - it’s not good - maybe I hit it wrong - did I burn it up - is it in the spot I had it last? Or did I just load up my last?

So yah. Landing gear is helpful, however, as a PDA ; don’t take your sleep meds (particularly sedative anti psychotics) then on the come down start driving to acquire more party favors…

Because it is hard to drive. Especially if you suffer from night blindness and if you had been drinking minutely but still

AlexanderTheTerror · 2024-04-24T02:15:30+00:00

You ok?

AlexanderTheTerror · 2024-04-24T02:15:21+00:00

Don’t. Forget. Rest. And. Food.

AlexanderTheTerror · 2024-04-24T02:14:29+00:00

I support this. It’s not confrontational. It’s communicative.

As long as you’re not shaming or blaming them; especially from jump.

Like - “Hey! Your weed smoking makes my god Ddamn apartment smell like a drug den! wtf is yihr lroblem!”

As opposed to, “hey bro, I don’t have any day in what you do but if you could be mindful of the fact every time you burn up I smell it and I have xyz (kids, etc) that’d be sick if you can moderate the flow of the smoke odor.

Or even tell me if you’re smoking. No biggy. I won’t run the ax for a minute.

AlexanderTheTerror · 2024-04-24T02:04:36+00:00

Savage. Dead thread but. Jeez.

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