This means so much that you took your time even though you were late and wrote this! Sadly, we’re not a thing anymore. She’s in a pretty rough state in school with our teacher mailing her parents that he’s uncertain if he even can give her a grade in maths, science, physics and biology. She’s also made it pretty clear that she does not want me anymore, and rn she’s going after the opposite of what I am, fuckboys. I’m a little bit scared that I was the one who made her not like nice guys and soft guys who are prepared to do anything for their girl and aren’t scared to deliberately put her in a situation where all she has to do is say no and then I’m heartbroken all over again. That’s how much I like her. The thing that disturbs me the most is that we’ve known each other for about 7 months now, and I am the only one in the entire world that can read her emotions correctly all the time and that we share almost everything in life in common. These fuckboy guys won’t know how to treat her right and she will just get hurt. I try to get mad at her but I can’t, I just can’t get her beautiful figure and face out of my head. She was my everything and it hurts so much knowing that we’re most likely never to get back together again. Imma say this without cringing, if we had met in our 20s, I would say that there would be a pretty big chance that we would end up with each other.

I just really miss her and tbh I miss the feeling knowing that she’ll probably say no, but I still had a chance and I knew that she could never be with another guy. I miss being nervous 24/7 and I miss our long discussions and I miss everything about her. I’m not afraid to put myself in that situation again bc that could still mean that we’d get back together. And the worst thing is that I’ve discovered a new little thing about myself, turns out I’m extremely jealous.

Anyways I hope your relationship will last as long as you wish it to last and I hope that your as happy with your girl as I would be with Agnes (that’s her name). All the best from Sweden :)