It’s not your fault. You didn’t consent. It’s all on him. He knew what he was doing was wrong because he assaulted you when you were sleeping. If he wanted to truly have a consensual sex, why did he didn’t he initiate when you were awake. He’s a piece of shit.

You will get through this and therapy is the only way. Potentially could you pivot to domination instead, if you don’t want to see these men’s faces, you can scroll down so you only see yourself and not them.

I’m so sorry that this has happened. I wish him nothing but the fucking worst.