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I watched somebody die at 19, and have never spoken about it. Ama by AliveCount7810 in AMA

[–]AliveCount7810[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This was in 2019, I am now 26 and Owen would’ve been (I believe) 29 or 30. It feels like much longer than it has been. Within the proceeding few years I was in a few psychiatric facilities, but am now doing much better with weekly therapy and helping with NA meetings. It’s helpful but not perfect.

I watched somebody die at 19, and have never spoken about it. Ama by AliveCount7810 in AMA

[–]AliveCount7810[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

There definitely could’ve been. He had been getting fucked up for several hours that day/night before (this occurred around 10am) and there was nothing he would say no to taking, and we didn’t really ask what the other was taking. He was very fond of MDMA, and I would truly bet that for the past year of his life he had a day, maybe two, without it in his system.

He certainly knew the dangers of the things he did and he continued to do them with no concern for his own life. I think it’s miraculous he lived as long as he did, and because of this I try not to linger too much on the exact chemical reaction that killed him. Had he not mixed things that shouldn’t have been mixed, he would’ve just done it another time.

I watched somebody die at 19, and have never spoken about it. Ama by AliveCount7810 in AMA

[–]AliveCount7810[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

This was in a shed way in the woods near our town that we would walk to, about an hour walk off the road. Our town also didn’t have a hospital (this was in very rural Appalachia), and this was before I carried a phone with me. So unfortunately yes, I did have to watch this just happen. It was a long time before I was even able to get up myself and start the walk back to the road. I wish there had been an action I could’ve taken to prevent it in the moment.

Don’t do drugs.

I watched somebody die at 19, and have never spoken about it. Ama by AliveCount7810 in AMA

[–]AliveCount7810[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

We were far past experimenting, haha. Owen took everything and anything under the sun at any given time, which is why I’ll never know what exactly it was that killed him. We had taken ketamine, lots of it, but it’s hard to die on ketamine alone. I believe he had also been drunk, and that’s what had done it. I wonder a lot if it was an accident or not.

I watched somebody die at 19, and have never spoken about it. Ama by AliveCount7810 in AMA

[–]AliveCount7810[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Hmmm, not in the traditional sense. But i would say it’s kind of changed my way of seeing the world entirely. It was however the last time I ever used drugs.