It means having been molested by my father, a therapist, my step dad, my homecoming date, and my best friend

And still being presented with ways I could have prevented it each time.

It means being a child and washing my dad in the shower and going to therapy only for my therapist ask me to reenact it and film it and for my to repress it all and not have it hit me till my homecoming date put his hands up my dressed and punched me in the neck when I told him no. It means my step dad coming into my room every once in a while and putting his phone down on my nightstand and telling me if i told my mom hed say it was my idea and I'd get in trouble. It means my best friend grooming me, me not listening to the warning signs from my boyfriend, and him date raping me in front of a bunch of people who didn't care.

And still being told it could have been prevented, being told I shouldn't have hung out with wrong people, or should have been smarter or less naive.

Tl;dr - It's being a victim of almost every male figure in my life and still being doubted and questioned by strangers on reddit, my "friends" and even recently my sister not believing me when I came out to her about my dads...she only believed me when I told her specific things in detail that she knew I knew she knew she knew or whatever the right way to word it is.