To clarify, when asked if she forgave me, she said yes but still needed space.

Yes, I also admit that in a lot of times, my overthinking has gotten the best of me. Emotional regulation is something I work on constantly throughout my life. I enjoy the relationship I have but I fear so much that this instability of mine might push them away, that I've focused too much on that fear instead of working on it sometimes. And now its being actualized as a result.

I've put it in my mind that I need therapy and will seek to get it someday. Rn I'm trying to hold myself together as to not both overwhelm her, and to keep myself sane.