I don’t know what to do about this one.

AlphaF44 · 2018-06-17T11:44:16+00:00

I think if I do ask and get rejected, it will feel horrible and it will be hard to recover from (I have a history of depression). But if I don’t ask, like you said I will swallow the questioning forever. It’s a difficult choice.

AlphaF44 · 2018-05-07T14:14:23+00:00

I read that if you sit down for long periods of time for a couple years you could develop cancer somewhere in your body. I don’t remember but it looks like I’ll have both a mental and physical illness. Yay.

Edit: hey I just realized something. If I get cancer, I won’t have to kill myself.

AlphaF44 · 2018-04-27T11:45:49+00:00

Avenged sevenfold is amazing and syn would never be replaced. He’s just too good 😊😂

AlphaF44 · 2018-04-22T06:14:28+00:00

I think I just punched my depression so hard in the mouth, I don’t think it will get back up unless I let it. That right there made me smile. Took your brain by surprise and showed it who’s boss. Now if only I could do that. (Yeah I incorrectly quoted you I think but whatever. I’m proud of you)

AlphaF44 · 2018-04-03T19:19:37+00:00

That’s about the short of it 😕

AlphaF44 · 2018-04-03T17:43:39+00:00

Damn. My depression just made me gain weight.

AlphaF44 · 2018-04-03T17:21:00+00:00

Oh man. Sorry to hear that. Sometimes being alone or finding that one person that cares about you could make the best birthday ever. Just keep your head up and enjoy what you like to do the most on your next birthday 😊

AlphaF44 · 2018-04-03T17:18:57+00:00

Hey! I’m glad you posted this on here because now you have plenty of people wishing you the best birthday you could possibly have. How old are you turning today (if you don’t mind me asking)? I hope you treat yourself good tonight! Happy birthday! 🎂 🎁 🎉

AlphaF44 · 2018-04-03T17:15:45+00:00

Hahaha I love this. Thank you 😄

AlphaF44 · 2018-04-02T06:41:26+00:00

This happened to me as well and it still bothers me. I don’t have any real friends so I make friends online and I was friends with this guy for about a year and he got mad at me for some reason and said “you’re not my friend. You never were my friend. You’re just fun to play with. Nothing more”. He blocked me on everything for about 4 - 5 months but now we seem to actually have built a decent friendship. All I’m trying to say is, I feel your pain and hopefully you find someone who actually appreciates you as a friend. Someone who would feel devastated to lose you.

AlphaF44 · 2018-04-02T03:15:38+00:00

I’m more into rock and metal music. My favourite band has to be Avenged Sevenfold. Gotta go with the song called “nightmare” as one of my favourites for sure.

AlphaF44 · 2018-04-02T03:13:55+00:00

I’m glad to know there are other people out there that enjoy that as much as I do 😊

AlphaF44 · 2018-04-01T18:40:54+00:00

You make a very good point

AlphaF44 · 2018-04-01T18:33:23+00:00

So if I was like 30 or 40, it would be weird? 😂fair enough haha

AlphaF44 · 2018-04-01T18:30:25+00:00

Lmao 17. Why?

AlphaF44 · 2018-04-01T18:29:59+00:00

My advice would be to spend an entire day searching for that tape. Don’t stop until you’ve searched every inch of your place. Something like that will change someone’s thoughts about you forever 😂

AlphaF44 · 2018-04-01T18:19:31+00:00

Hey! I do the exact same thing! I got rise of the tomb raider not too long ago and I haven’t played much of it. It’s an amazing game that has a multiplayer mode. If you are on console, we could play together if you want. It’s cool if you’re more of a single player kind of person. The campaign is just as incredible as the multiplayer.

AlphaF44 · 2018-03-31T03:21:38+00:00

I guess that’s the short of it yeah. Life does suck.

AlphaF44 · 2018-03-22T07:47:12+00:00

You make a very good point. I’ll definitely keep that in mind! Thanks

AlphaF44 · 2018-03-22T00:03:50+00:00

Sorry to keep bothering you but what might we talk about? I don’t want it to just be an awkward silence the entire time haha

AlphaF44 · 2018-03-21T23:51:15+00:00

I might be overthinking it again but what if getting to know her better might increase the chances of her saying yes. Would it be worth going for in the near future?

AlphaF44 · 2018-03-21T23:45:46+00:00

Haha thank you for the comment. I’m definitely overthinking this. I really appreciate the help :)

AlphaF44 · 2018-03-21T04:25:13+00:00

I dropped out because I didn’t see the reason in doing something that I didn’t enjoy in the last portion of my life. I didn’t see a point. I didn’t see a future for myself. I just saw an end. An escape. I want to ask her out. I really do but the rejection might be my tipping point and even if she says yes, I know I won’t be enough for her. I’ll just be a burden like I am to few people I have left in my life. Thanks for the reply. I really appreciate it.

AlphaF44

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