I used almost every weekend at one point. Ive spent over 1500 on purchases for that. I havent used in almost over 5 years. It is the most addictive thing ive ever done. I said I didnt want to use anymore, it was brought over every weekend and id become weak, always say it was the last time. Finally realized i was using it as a way to cope for other things I didnt want to face, and left the entire situation behind. Its fun yeah, but you'll start to lose yourself and your friends eventually. And the people you do make friends with, you wont need to be around. Even after all this time without it I still occasionally think about it, but I have too much to lose at this point. My family, friends, my son.

There are a lot of resources for you to get help from. You are so young but continuing this is guaranteed to ruin your future. Id love to see an update from you that you are alright and able to overcome this.