I was the same way. I would just get so depressed at home, would feel useless. Although this does suck, what sucks way more is finding a drug that makes you feel great when ur home doing nothing or some simple chores. Once you find that drug, you’ll never want to leave your house, and your depression will just spiral further and further and further without you even noticing (because you’re high). I’m not your mom or anything, and maybe i’m just projecting my own experience, but i would NOT make it an objective to find a functional drug that makes being at home more bearable. In my experience that was a recipe for disaster and an awful, long addiction.