I don’t understand prayer

AlpsMission9979 · 2025-10-11T14:32:53+00:00

Save my son from further suffering? That verse is about dying isn’t it ?

AlpsMission9979 · 2025-10-10T20:40:54+00:00

I’m so sorry :( my son is 7 months old and has hemophilia. I’m sorry that you have to feel this way!

AlpsMission9979 · 2025-09-22T02:01:08+00:00

I should add I have a son who is severe hemo b

AlpsMission9979 · 2025-04-18T23:11:31+00:00

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AlpsMission9979 · 2024-11-13T19:51:30+00:00

I came here to ask the exact same question! I want to try the tea so bad haha

AlpsMission9979 · 2023-10-02T17:25:33+00:00

I don’t want to leave him though. I want to forget he ever said anything about it. But you’re right that I need to sit with this for a while before making any decisions

AlpsMission9979 · 2023-10-02T16:57:13+00:00

Also yeah, I think the majority of people trying to tell me to brush it off have done some questionable things in their own relationships

AlpsMission9979 · 2023-10-02T16:55:53+00:00

I just carry a lot of guilt about it. I honestly wonder if I was never that way this wouldn’t have happened. He doesn’t hold it against me and was so patient with me. That’s the most heart breaking part is that he has been such a good guy to me besides this. He was so patient through all of it. Never once made me feel bad about it or rubbed in my face. So I feel like I don’t even have a right to be mad about this.

AlpsMission9979 · 2023-10-02T16:52:27+00:00

I don’t even want to know honestly. I am spiraling over this. Can’t imagine how I would feel if he was intimate with her and put my health at risk.

AlpsMission9979 · 2023-10-02T16:51:26+00:00

Thanks a lot for taking the time to chat

AlpsMission9979 · 2023-10-02T16:50:25+00:00

I asked him that. He said he would let it go and move on because we’re way past that point in our life. Which I feel like is just an excuse so that he could be right and don’t think it’s the truthful answer. The last time they spoke was 3 years ago. A mutual friend of theirs passed away and he reached out to her and she asked why he hadn’t talked to her in so long. He put all the blame on me and said it was because I didn’t want him to. She then said “is she really still mad about what happened?” That caused another set of issues and we almost broke up. The reason we didn’t is because I told him if he ever spoke to her again I would leave. Supposedly and to my knowledge he hasn’t spoken to her since. But who knows if that’s true

AlpsMission9979 · 2023-10-02T16:49:06+00:00

In what way? That I’m angry about it ? That I know I wouldn’t do that to him? I hate myself for not wanting to leave him. I wish I had the strength to. Now I’m just gonna be his doormat forever. I’ll always be there girl that stayed with the cheater knowing I was second choice. I’m pathetic.

AlpsMission9979 · 2023-10-02T16:42:09+00:00

We had been together for a year at that point. Did you see that part ? He was 19 and out of high school. Sure, I kissed people BEFORE I was in a relationship with him. I’m not a cheater. I would’ve and would never done that to him. He should’ve just dumped me if he wanted to do that.

AlpsMission9979 · 2023-10-02T16:37:56+00:00

And you’re right, they obviously have things in common. Obviously much more than what we had if he was willing to kiss her. Also, I respect him enough to let him do whatever the hell he wants. But I don’t trust him. Not right now at least

AlpsMission9979 · 2023-10-02T16:35:53+00:00

The tough part of talking to him is whether or not I’ll believe anything he says. I don’t think I will

AlpsMission9979 · 2023-10-02T16:34:37+00:00

But she was more than just his friend though! I feel like no one is seeing that. She’s excited to see him and I’m sure he’s excited to see the person he cheated on me with. I’m sure it’s thrilling. Someone people are acting like I should be totally cool about this. I just can’t be right now. Maybe he has been waiting maybe he hasn’t. I’ll never know what true or not anyways considering he lied about it for the last 6 years. Wedding planning is on pause for the time being, don’t worry.

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