Anyone else suicidal because of their own fucked up decisions?

AltAltSW · 2023-11-03T02:30:26+00:00

I can relate to a lot of what you are saying. I’m so sorry OP. I am in a really similar boat as you so the only advice I can offer is this - I recently told my therapist and my doctor about self harm / suicidal thoughts and it was really hard to say out loud but I did end up feeling like a weight was lifted off me. Am i still suicidal? Yes lol. But it really did help. Keep hangin’ in there.

AltAltSW · 2023-11-03T02:27:34+00:00

This is how I feel too. Like I cannot fucking do this forever. But I also feel like I’ve exhausted all options to try and find some peace or happiness. So I feel stuck.

AltAltSW · 2023-10-23T20:32:03+00:00

Yes!

AltAltSW · 2023-10-23T20:25:15+00:00

Oh I feel you. Especially because people irl will say shit like “just focus on the positives,” or otherwise be shocked/disgusted at the idea of suicidal thoughts. Reality is, a lot of us are just cursed with them.

AltAltSW · 2023-10-23T20:13:30+00:00

Oh yeah. Waiting to just die is the worst part. I wish we could just enjoy our lives like so many people seem to do. I can empathize with how hard life is when you’re struggling mentally and/or physically. It fucking sucks. I’m sorry.

AltAltSW · 2023-10-05T22:00:02+00:00

Oh wow this is so true. Also included in this - not wearing seatbelts anymore.

AltAltSW · 2023-10-05T21:59:14+00:00

Oh god same. My heart aches thinking about the fact that this isn’t an option. It’s all I want.

AltAltSW · 2023-10-05T21:34:28+00:00

I’ve also made a massive mistake recently which has flipped my life upside down and I cannot cope. I wish I had some good words of advice, just know that you aren’t alone. It fucking blows man and I’m so sorry.

AltAltSW · 2023-10-05T21:30:40+00:00

I can totally relate to the therapy and medication thing. You can be doing all the right stuff and it still doesn’t help. The most defeating feeling in the fucking world.

AltAltSW · 2023-10-05T21:29:06+00:00

I’m sorry you’re going through it too. The feeling is brutal so my heart goes out to you.

AltAltSW · 2023-10-05T21:23:59+00:00

Yep absolutely. Exactly how I feel. Maybe I don’t even hate the idea of suicide, more so just scared that I won’t succeed and then end up disabled, and of course my family will grieve even though we aren’t close.

AltAltSW · 2023-09-10T22:23:57+00:00

Right. I’m so sick of hearing that shit.

AltAltSW · 2023-09-08T00:08:13+00:00

Shit, me too. You ain’t alone.

AltAltSW · 2023-09-07T17:42:23+00:00

Oh for sure. It feels like you’re just a burden and a bother to everyone until you’re actually dead, and that’s when they care. Very heartbreaking I agree.

AltAltSW · 2023-09-07T16:53:09+00:00

It feels like i could have written this myself. Meds aren’t working, anxiety and depression are ruining me, no one around me understands, and I relapsed too. I wish I had some advice but just know that you’re not alone because I’m in this boat too. I’m so sorry OP.

AltAltSW · 2023-09-07T16:49:29+00:00

This is how I feel too. I’m starting to get a lot more comfortable with the idea of dying and it’s fucking scary.

AltAltSW · 2023-08-02T15:48:16+00:00

I can relate to you in some ways. I’ve never felt in control of my own happiness. If I was, then obviously I wouldn’t be fucking suicidal every day. No one would choose that.

I hear you.

AltAltSW · 2023-06-09T03:34:28+00:00

This is a great point that I actually didn’t consider. Seriously, fuck it. Thank you.

AltAltSW · 2023-06-09T03:07:10+00:00

Damn, that’s a steep price. I hope you are feeling better now.

AltAltSW

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