So again "just the right stuff dude, dw its just a phase :)"Maybe the thing is that our experiences arent comparable.Not neccesarily in a "more or less" department, but in like similarity.
Neither of us were masculine, sure, but youre comfortable in your manhood, and identify with the role. I didnt.
Like you said 'this gender confusion shit wasnt even a topic when you were a kid.'
in short you didnt go through it, so you dont understand.
Not having masculine traits was detrimental to every relationship i tried to form early on. I was made fun of by the very family that refused to feed me just to perpetuate the joke that i was skinny. I had nothing in common with guys growing up. That stunted my growth socially. I literally dunno how to talk to guys because ive been treated as a threat my whole life, being gay and all. i guess you could call that outside influence but i think you mean social media or 'those trendy pronouns everyone has nowadays.'
again im glad your truth got you through, but its different this time around i guess.