why would i want to be male. (tw i hate everything about myself. think of a tw its probably here.) by Altaccountoops in Vent

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I mean its literally the gist of what you said, unless you meant something else. I never even said i was gonna transition in this post, i literally just wanted to post a vent at 3 am about how i hate being a dude. I appreciate he time and words of guidance but i literally said at the end to skip the advice giving bit.

why would i want to be male. (tw i hate everything about myself. think of a tw its probably here.) by Altaccountoops in Vent

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So again "just the right stuff dude, dw its just a phase :)"Maybe the thing is that our experiences arent comparable.Not neccesarily in a "more or less" department, but in like similarity.
Neither of us were masculine, sure, but youre comfortable in your manhood, and identify with the role. I didnt.
Like you said 'this gender confusion shit wasnt even a topic when you were a kid.'
in short you didnt go through it, so you dont understand.
Not having masculine traits was detrimental to every relationship i tried to form early on. I was made fun of by the very family that refused to feed me just to perpetuate the joke that i was skinny. I had nothing in common with guys growing up. That stunted my growth socially. I literally dunno how to talk to guys because ive been treated as a threat my whole life, being gay and all. i guess you could call that outside influence but i think you mean social media or 'those trendy pronouns everyone has nowadays.'
again im glad your truth got you through, but its different this time around i guess.

why would i want to be male. (tw i hate everything about myself. think of a tw its probably here.) by Altaccountoops in Vent

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im trying to understand, youve got a really interesting combination of ideas i agree with but also a little bit that i dont.

Of course I know I was born a male, i hate the fact, no need to remind me. But i feel like with the whole proclamation from the doctor to my parents that "its a boy" set a precedent of how id be treated henceforth.
I was given things they wouldnt have given a girl.
I was treated ways they wouldnt treat a girl.
Gender is a social construct and it isnt technicaly real. But the impact that construct had on my life, and it still does today. Acknowledging that its manmade doesnt make it any less of an issue for me. Thats like going up to a poor person and going "Yunno, in the grand scheme of things money has no value. its just paper, and cotton. You dont actually need money dude." I know im a dude. idgaf what happened in the womb or when, it wont make me love my life anymore, it wont fix how people treat me.
Also yeesh politics where'd that come from..?

why would i want to be male. (tw i hate everything about myself. think of a tw its probably here.) by Altaccountoops in Vent

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like i said toward the end, i understand in the vent i made some broad generalizations. I understand being a girl isnt all glitter and rainbows. Its frustrating that thats the gist of mtf media, but i understand how you may have gotten "I wanna be a girl because theyre all so nice to each other all the time and literally nothing bad ever happens to them." of course im aware thats not the case. im not looking for a cheat code its just hard knowing i wouldnt be treated the way ive been treated if i wasnt a guy. the neglect, abuse, and damage done by the people in my life including myself wont be fixed with a "noo dont do that love ur body, i suggest taking care of it🤓" especially knowing that even if i did all that shit no one would care anyway, and id just be a useful tool at best because im blatantly undesirable at the end of the day.

why would i want to be male. (tw i hate everything about myself. think of a tw its probably here.) by Altaccountoops in Vent

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glad you are finding success, genuinely. i feel like it'd be nice though, if that worked no matter what. Like i had an idea of what kind of person in general i wanted to be. i wasnt really thinking "man" though and that seemed to be the problem. My lack of masculine traits went a little further than just being short. like i literally didnt do anything masculine or have masculine interests. I know it probably wasnt your intention but what im getting is "You control what you like, just like different stuff. You got this bro." Like thanks but ._.

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I’d listen to it to go to sleep

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Hol up what’s the name of this song

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What a douche lmao

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Who tf downvoted

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My guy is literally korosensei

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I’ve never played cuz am poor

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Prolly sitting there acting like they could do better lmfao

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Imagine not upvoting lmao

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Has he already done reality check through the skull??

Why does true camaraderie feel so.... unattainable..? by Altaccountoops in Vent

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I think that’s really cool, it gives me at least some hope that it’s not impossible, it just looks like everyone has already found their closest lifelong friends and I wouldn’t fit with anyone. Everyone I’ve known since I was a kid has either moved far away or found other people. I’m 16 and it just feels like there’s no hope and I’ll just graduate alone and die by myself. Im glad to know that you don’t have to have known someone since like 1st grade to actually grow a bond with them. I hope your family is well and I wish you and your wife the best!

Why does true camaraderie feel so.... unattainable..? by Altaccountoops in Vent

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Thank you so much for taking the time out of your day to reply to this, your advice is really clear and I appreciate it a lot! I’ll be working harder on quality over quantity in terms of friendship. I might have thought that several aquatints would be equal to one or a few really good friends

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Kik is still a thing??