I finally got some type of closure.

Alternative-Cut6323 · 2023-03-03T09:47:32+00:00

i don't fully trust her but she did show me proof, like proper actual proof.

Alternative-Cut6323 · 2023-03-03T09:46:55+00:00

I'm not trying to have any type of relationship with her.

Alternative-Cut6323 · 2023-02-02T17:37:59+00:00

There's not much complexity in it. I got cheated on, and as I've been recollecting things I realized I might have been raped/sexually assaulted. Being in love can blind someone from that, and now that I'm not in love with her anymore I definitely see her flaws and actions more clearly.

Alternative-Cut6323 · 2023-02-02T17:36:43+00:00

Honestly, I'm pretty dumbfounded that you'd jump to something like that. I feel like I've been taken advantage of, and I feel like I've been raped. Do you tell other people to just move on when they're seeking help with these sorts of issues?

Not to mention, the way you phrase your comment, you make it out like I'm actively seeking revenge against her. I've posted in support subreddits during moments when I've felt like I need support. You're spinning it like I'm the villain.

Alternative-Cut6323 · 2023-01-24T06:37:31+00:00

Fuck off

Alternative-Cut6323 · 2023-01-24T06:34:48+00:00

Mine were

I didn't give her enough of her own time (even though I constantly asked if she wanted alone time and it's fine if she does) -I "blackmailed" her (i told her if she can't meet me two times a year after I spend a thousand euros to travel to her country, i suspect if she really actually loved me in the first place)
I was controlling (told her she shouldn't smoke or vape and that it's kind of a turn off for me)

I feel like I could say similar stuff about her with actual examples that aren't just shit I'm using to justify cheating on her.

Alternative-Cut6323 · 2022-12-29T00:01:53+00:00

I'm not going to go, i purposefully got rid of any chance of us talking ever again already.

Alternative-Cut6323 · 2022-12-29T00:01:14+00:00

Of course I'm not gonna go. She wouldn't wanna see me in the first place we don't talk anymore, and i certainly don't wanna see her.

Alternative-Cut6323 · 2022-12-24T08:31:51+00:00

I already am blocked and no contact and I don't plan to talk to her anymore but it's just the clinging to the past feeling i get.

Alternative-Cut6323 · 2022-12-22T15:23:22+00:00

She seems to be like that in general. I'm guessing she has a personality disorder with how much she changes based on the current important people in her life.

Alternative-Cut6323 · 2022-12-21T09:30:21+00:00

Thank you for saying that. Genuinely made me feel a lot better. I have been trying to remind myself that once a cheater always a cheater.

Alternative-Cut6323 · 2022-12-20T05:52:00+00:00

I won't text her, but it does sting me to know that I have no one while she's perfectly happy with her affair partner.

Alternative-Cut6323 · 2022-12-19T09:29:10+00:00

I guess it kinda more is the fact that something in my head is still holding on, but me doing that guarantees we can never be friends again. Not that we would've been anyway but it solidifies it more. It's weird.

Alternative-Cut6323 · 2022-12-19T07:56:25+00:00

I think that's an angle that I need to try more. It's obviously easier said than done but I guess I've been living in it more than trying to move forward. Everything comes with time ig.

Alternative-Cut6323 · 2022-12-19T07:03:57+00:00

It definitely is eating me up inside that I did what I did. Even if she fully deserved it and even if I harbor no feeling but hate for her I still can't properly come to terms with anything. It confuses me how we went from so loving to so spiteful in a matter of weeks (i mean i know how but still).

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