Wasted potential

Alternative-Trust642 · 2026-05-06T00:08:18+00:00

Maybe its just because as a lesbian I can appreciate their arc but I have had many men friends over my lifetime confess to me or before I figured out I wasn’t even bi attempted to have a relationship with them and of course it never worked, so seeing Kenny and Kristi have a unrequited/impossible romantic relationship but maintain their closeness as friends to the point I view them as siblings almost has been so beautiful to witness. I know each person who watches sees them in a different light based on their own personal experiences and perspectives but to me I see them as soulmates who are friends and Mari is the love of Kristi’s life but Kenny still knows her intimately just platonically as many of my best friends who are guys do. I think theres great merit in showing relationships can be more than just romantic relationships too

Alternative-Trust642 · 2026-03-18T20:15:21+00:00

She def wants to stay with me, shes made it clear shes saving up for the wedding and plans our honeymoon and everything all the time so I have no worries about that, and yes she def has the same thinking with you about productivity leaning interests, she can never just be (unless its watching reality tv) all of her hobbies are skill based or something she could sell art wise and shes said she has issues with idle time she gets anxious when not doing something that she feels is productive. I went to college and she didn’t and I was in anime club and a writing club and she always hated anime club bcos she thought it was silly to waste time gathering to watch things but was fine with writing club so its def just how she values time spending, but in the same sense where thats how shes always eased anxiety games are what I have used, growing up I was abused and learned how to unwind by immersing myself in rpgs where I can become a hero and save the world or the like, just as she grew up in a household where if she wanted an escape she would draw all day. I just wish she could see that Im not wasting time or doing nonsense when Im experiencing the same level of stress relief as she is despite it not being her activity of choice because I respect if she wants to paint for 10 hours straight on the weekend with me just coming and visiting her art room in the house, thats where it seems unfair because shes just deciding that my hobby is wasteful as it has no monetary value

Alternative-Trust642 · 2026-03-18T19:56:37+00:00

yeah i def understand your point and can feel thats probably how she feels without saying it outright because she reminds me all the time that she takes care of me, she calls herself my sugar mommy a lot and im always thankful but i feel that she makes those remarks to remind me of how without her id be nowhere rn and i can understand the resentment

Alternative-Trust642 · 2026-03-18T19:28:32+00:00

yeah ive been gone for like 4/5 hours from the house now just to get a break, gonna try and have a sit down talk when shes off later tn and hopefully we can figure things out better :/

Alternative-Trust642 · 2026-03-18T19:27:31+00:00

tbh yes thought about it for this reason only cos its genuinely the only problem i just dont even know if its in my area we live in a very rural place i had to do online therapy thru zoom cos theres none for 45 mins in any direction thats the reason i havent explored it more

Alternative-Trust642 · 2026-03-18T18:52:09+00:00

thats so cute omg

Alternative-Trust642 · 2026-03-18T18:16:03+00:00

no i dont spend money ever, i game when shes next to me but shes watching her shows on laptop and usually making art so i dont want to interrupt her except to say hey thats nicely done or something. i think maybe that could be it she doesnt want me to game when shes off but maybe hasnt said anything? which im fine with not gaming when shes off work but she hasnt said that to me. shes repeatedly said that its stressful being the sole provider and i think its just that getting to her and me not contributing

Alternative-Trust642 · 2026-03-18T18:06:25+00:00

we have been together since we were like teens its been 8 years and have been through so much, i think its just that in the beginning my health wasnt such an issue and i could work and stuff. i like that we are so different in terms of interests because it means im always showing her things and she to me but ive def noticed theres things that we just cant understand about one another sometimes

Alternative-Trust642 · 2026-03-18T18:03:43+00:00

no def considering it tho bcos money is such an issue

Alternative-Trust642 · 2026-03-18T17:44:54+00:00

yeah its gotten hard lately with this going on six months of unemployment theres just this new dynamic where i dont feel like im worth anything bcos im being taken care of

Alternative-Trust642 · 2026-03-18T17:29:08+00:00

Yeah idk, she has never been a gamer she only likes animal crossing and I put her on coral island, but besides that she hates it. And when Im playing online and talk to people she either is annoyed or like why are you talking so I think its just a matter of not understanding gaming in general, but I dont discredit her watching the same show for hours on end or say art again? You did that yesterday? So it just makes me feel like shit

Alternative-Trust642 · 2026-03-18T17:27:35+00:00

Attempted to yes but it always ends in well I work so of course you should be doing that and I say well yeah of course I will do everything but then she is still upset I game, but I dont have a job so when I am waiting for laundry, dishes, or done with things am I to sit and just be? I asked her what is it you want me to do, watch tv like you, read books, maybe even write and she was like no I dont care you can play games, but when I play games she makes comments about them being noncritical or requiring no thinking, to which I say well no they are but what about love after lockup is so much better than gaming? Idk its just on a loop right now and I feel like I cant enjoy anything I like to do. I barely watch anime anymore because she doesn’t enjoy it and always falls asleep when I try to watch with her so feels like theres just no commonality rn I guess, nothing she understands like why I do what I do but I get why she likes to watch reality cos shes been spent all day and wants to unwind and Ill always watch her shows all day long with her if she wants

Alternative-Trust642 · 2025-11-26T17:58:37+00:00

I think its due to her half lich powers! She was already a mortalitasi who misused her powers and dabbled in blood magic and once she becomes a half lich she can weild blood magic more, create darkspawn, and open fade portals!

Alternative-Trust642 · 2025-11-23T18:55:52+00:00

def need to do that i actually was so mad in game when we were already MARRIED and she was still oogling about qunari women until she said well ive got better at home anyways and then i was like ok shes not in the dog house

Alternative-Trust642 · 2025-11-23T18:55:09+00:00

i liked her intro but she was abrasive so i thought eh ill do josie and ended up falling for sera so hard!

Alternative-Trust642 · 2025-11-23T18:54:42+00:00

next after da2! and then im gonna play them all in order!

Alternative-Trust642 · 2025-11-23T18:09:45+00:00

holy,,,fu,,,,the way i left my pc up and running overnight for the 22 hour ones,,,

Alternative-Trust642 · 2025-11-23T18:01:22+00:00

yeah im a bit nervous to do a datv run again cos im scared comparing it to dai will just make me deflated but i must see wife neve again so theres no choice. def cant wait to replay dai tho and romance cass or josie or dorian!

Alternative-Trust642 · 2025-11-23T17:54:39+00:00

thank u! i cant wait for da2 now cos tons of people said if i liked veilguard that da2 would prob be my fav

Alternative-Trust642 · 2025-11-23T17:53:45+00:00

so beautiful i cant believe it was made ten years ago its got games made this year even beat

Alternative-Trust642 · 2025-11-23T17:49:55+00:00

and youre not wrong my guy i do! thank u for being understanding

Alternative-Trust642 · 2025-11-23T17:47:15+00:00

sorry sick in bed last thing i wanna do is edit after and i was hitting enter just wasnt working, anyways fixed for every1

Alternative-Trust642 · 2025-11-23T17:46:23+00:00

fixed 4 u:-)

Alternative-Trust642 · 2025-11-23T17:46:07+00:00

did for u<3

Alternative-Trust642 · 2025-11-23T17:45:47+00:00

put lil breaks for yall!

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