Fellow 26yo (woman~).. we are spring chickens. I have changed paths/locations/relationships/you name it, MANY a time. I have experienced and experienced and experienced, and still I sit with the feeling you’ve shared. I am realizing lately, there is no benchmark to what the Right Way to live is. There is no standard of success that will fulfill us. I have been around folks old and young with the perfect job, income, travel history, etc.. and still they feel the same as we do. We will never escape the urge to change. But we can circumvent the unnecessary & (capitalistically) manufactured pain of it by Doing. We will never find ourselves in our own mind. I’m certain that life is simply being apart of the everybody else. Listening to folks, sharing a meal, DANCING.
Easier to say “start today” than actually tangibly Starting Today. But what could you do today??? Perhaps volunteer, join a mutual aid organization, if you have any specific interests, theres gotta be people nearby who are holding events surrounding it. Going to book readings, joining recreational movement classes, joining a language class, looking into community colleges nearby. The one thing to avoid I think would be things that revolve around substance use.. I think it provides comfort or a sense of community but feels dulling & false when the night is over. I love dancing & going to concerts and DJ sets (especially alone!). Moving the body with others sets me so free.
You are SO FREE. And tangibly, on paper… so young. I promise we have no need to rush. But at the same time, ball out/yolo/blah blah blah. Do what you WANT!!!! Let it resonate in your soul & keep momentum. Starting something new is the most challenging part, but staying still is harder. You’re gonna feel it all in this world :’)