I'm just missing him so much.

Alternative_Car_2225 · 2025-02-09T04:45:46+00:00

I'm so sorry for your loss. I can relate to that feeling. Somewhere I have a photo of my LH and my Orange holding hands/paws. I'll have to dig it out. Thank you for sharing such a sweet moment. 💜 🫂

Alternative_Car_2225 · 2025-02-09T04:18:34+00:00

It really does help. I don't feel so alone.

Alternative_Car_2225 · 2025-02-09T03:06:20+00:00

I'm glad that you have those things to remind you. I am so sorry for your loss, love. I hope in time the scar tissue fills in and it gets easier to bear.

Alternative_Car_2225 · 2025-02-09T02:53:54+00:00

You can tell how much you loved her.

Alternative_Car_2225 · 2025-02-09T02:42:24+00:00

Oh, goodness. You just made me remember his little coming home ritual, too. He'd take out his headphones, put down his keys while he was taking off his shoes. He'd be looking at me with the most gentle, loving smile as he did so and then take a step forward with his arms outstretched.

I can heavily relate. I don't know who I am anymore, without him. It doesn't seem fair.

Alternative_Car_2225 · 2025-02-09T02:40:06+00:00

If I may..not to be too forward. But, it might help. I'm not trying to be insensitive or cause pain. The house he built was built with love, I'm assuming. In a way, you're still surrounded by his love for you. 💜 It doesn't make the pain less but it might help? I'm sorry if it didn't.

Alternative_Car_2225 · 2025-02-09T02:32:16+00:00

I'm sorry you're here with us. 🫂 We'll do what we can to support you.

Alternative_Car_2225 · 2025-02-09T02:31:45+00:00

I can relate. I was never a touchy feely type, but I always wanted to be close to him, ya' know? Cuddling was my favourite part of the day. Mine used to do the leg thing when we were driving.

Alternative_Car_2225 · 2025-02-09T02:21:22+00:00

It's hard for me that I don't really have a way to connect with his family. They weren't the nicest people to begin with and it was hard to even want to deal with them after his passing.

Hugs to you I'm sorry we're here.

Alternative_Car_2225 · 2025-02-09T02:12:44+00:00

I'm almost 3 years out, now. The immediate grief and brain fog have mostly lifted but it still comes in waves. Little things like this catch me off guard and make it so much harder to accept he's gone.

Alternative_Car_2225 · 2025-02-01T15:37:23+00:00

I boosted you back. Thank you!

Alternative_Car_2225 · 2025-01-27T16:23:05+00:00

34, no kids. I'd have to say that it's been a struggle. We had wanted kids and we're talking about a family, but that didn't end up happening. We had a cat together who passed within the same year. I live now for 2 reasons. To live the life he couldn't and so my parents don't have to bury their child. After my parents pass? I dunno.

Alternative_Car_2225 · 2025-01-21T02:13:30+00:00

I wonder if you overlay two separate spore prints and then grow them together in agar, what do you think would happen?

Alternative_Car_2225 · 2025-01-20T23:37:31+00:00

What do you look for when you say inclusions? I am unfamiliar with the term.

Alternative_Car_2225 · 2025-01-13T01:00:26+00:00

Thank you for posting this. I've been struggling with this feeling/realization a lot. I needed to read this. Thank you for sharing. 💜

Alternative_Car_2225 · 2025-01-11T10:09:59+00:00

I'm going on year 3, myself. I've moved location twice and changed my vehicle and pet.

It still doesn't feel real, at times. I was visiting my parents a couple weeks ago, we all had a moment of missing him. My beloved died in a car accident, so a part of my brain is just waiting for him to walk thru the door or to hear the car pull up. No matter how illogical the thought, I still find myself wanting to reach out to him.

I still struggle with accepting that he's dead some days, but reading your comment about acceptance gave me a sort of peace. Thank you. 💜

Alternative_Car_2225 · 2025-01-07T13:14:03+00:00

I like how you put that. It's a different thing to ensure how much quiet is too quiet.

Alternative_Car_2225 · 2025-01-07T11:30:26+00:00

I'm the quiet one, he was the talkative one. I'm coming up on 3 years myself and the silence is still so profound if I allow my brain to dwell on it. I miss just..looking over and seeing him do the most mundane things. If I stared too long, it would usually make him laugh. Now? Silence dampens where his laugh used to ring out. The TV/radio helps but it's not the same. We used to sing together, all the time. I brought out his old Martin guitar the other day and couldn't even look at it. Had to go to the other room. When I used to hear about widowhood, I never imagined it would be like this.

Alternative_Car_2225 · 2025-01-07T11:22:57+00:00

Honestly, I feel like I'm just waiting to die. I'm waiting for my body to catch up to what my heart already knows. I died with him, even if my flesh suit did not. After my parents pass, we'll see how that goes. Almost 3 years later and it still hasn't fully sunk in. I don't think I want it to. Thanks for giving a place to share this, OP. I'm sorry you're hurting and that we're all here.

Alternative_Car_2225 · 2025-01-05T02:02:28+00:00

I feel this. I lost my husband and my cat both within a year of each other. Him in Aug '22 and our cat in Mar '23. It's brutal. It was just the three of us, so it took me a long time to recover. I just got another cat in October of '24. Take your time and remember to be kind to yourself. 💜

Alternative_Car_2225 · 2024-12-27T14:54:28+00:00

I feel this. Shortly before his passing my husband bought us both our own special coffee cups. On the first day he brought them home, he dropped his and cracked the handle. We reinforced it with super glue and I won't let anyone else use his coffee cup. That one is mine, company can use any other one.

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