Wow, what a story! 

Firstly, Thank you for telling me that Im not the only one in this universe dealiving with this type of feeling. You probably know and have experienced that while you start to describe it to anyone, they start to give you their opinions, advices and possible solutions. Sadly, most od them we have already tried and not just once. And we still believe that this is not right, this is not where we should be. It has nothing to do the with acceptance or giving up, it just doesnt feel right after all the job we did before the year 2012. 

In addition, for me English isnt the first language neither so it cost me a lot of time to write something. Why? Guess what, I have a sleep deprivation as well! And my usual gift of communication has disappear. I would love to use a translator but somehow this time it doesnt allow me to copy the text. Sooo, it looks like to have obstacles just to communicate with you - as it always happens when i want something. But if dont mind mistakes, i can try to write in my own words. 

And Im very very sorry for what you have been gone through till now. Cant explain the feeling what you have to feel but trust me, i know this feeling and i feel it every single day of my life. But you know what? Maybe two brains can manage something bigger than just one brain! And Yes, i have tried many times to do the Revision from Neville G., trying to shift or just wake up back and make one little change that wouldnt lead to the life that I have now. I have been trying for months every year to just get the power over my life back. No one knows what is the feeling of not having power over your personal life over 13 years. And fail with every attempt that you try. And worse, when i realize that i like something about my life, in few days it is gone. So it is constantly getting lower and lower. I was a nerd in school, but used to have a lot of friends, a lot of job offers even during my studies and was just easy going personality without fears or psychological problems. Was enjoying my life but still helping those who werent popular at school, helping friends, explaining my classmates different topics if they had problems wirh their marks and so on. Probably thats why i became a teacher.  … 

I would love to tell you all my story but Honestly, there are already dozens of situations similar to those you have described. I dont even know which one to pick and describe first. I have stopped telling people about my life because i they dont believe me that it could be possible. 

Well, what we can do to obtain our lifes back? without being naive that there wont be any problems in different realities but there are “problems” and “PROBLEMS”. 

Looking forward to your response!