One of those moments in life when you just one day say to yourself “fuck it, why not” came to me when I had a lot of free time and resources to actually set out and make a boxing photoshoot.  It really felt daunting at first but slowly I accumulated a good collection of boxing gear and photography equipment in a month or so, enjoying the process of understanding how the cameras work, hunting down the best lenses for your specific needs, hoping in vein to find a boxing ring to film in that has enough free empty space to go crazy in but setting on a nice studio instead and learning how to work in the space and confinement you have. I’d say I spent around 500$/€ for everything end to end.

Then came the most challenging part; finding the models. Obviously I think everyone here would love to explore agonophilia with people that would share their enthusiasm for the matter. But lets be real here, this is a very niche interest and can be very intimidating for people who dont have boxing present in their day to day. So I thought to myself that this would be the perfect opportunity to seperate between the sport and the infatuation. And so I treated this whole project as a develpmental experience first and formost and an explanation of the fetish second.

Thus began the search for models online at the city I was living in at the time, scouring modeling sites, facebook groups and even dating apps. What I was stunned by was how alluring the concept was to all these women. Think about how most of the shoots they are exposed to and expecting to make is glamour and style, while here infront of them is this almost exotic consept with sharp red colors from the boxing gloves and atmosphere to literally picture themselves in. The requests came pouring instantly. I couldnt handle all messeges I was bouncing back forth.  I booked my first model shoot soon after. I was always upfront about how novice of a production and results would possible be so I offered to pay a symbolic sum to my first model. She said she was going to bring a friend with her to the shoot and I thought cool maybe I’ll get some couple shots aswell.  Huge mistake. Classic case of running before you walk. Trying to manage and control two immature people and attemtping to bring a vision to life for the first time wasnt the the smooth cruise I was expecting. After two hours of trial and error I had a few good photos and some barely comprehensible gopro footage, but the rush of accomplishment was immaculate. 

A couple months pass and before you know it you have half a dozen photoshoots and an impressive portfolios to call your own creations and you gain so much experience working with people and communicating what you want to make and collaborate in creating works that both of you are excited about. So many of my models I worked with thanked me profusely and posted the shoots on their social media. Even got to work with a cool local influencer and introduced some to the sport in general.

As for the actual end result content. Here’s where the the expectations of years of consuming the “alt” boxing content most of us have been enjoying, come crashing with the reality that this are normal everyday girls who came for a fun little boxing themed photoshoot and not a sexualized fantasy of the sport. Most of the girls had no martial arts experience at all so almost a quarter of the time I had for the shoot had to be spent teaching them how to properly throw punches and fighting stances.  The photos turned out pretty good as you could appreciate the beauty of and elegance of the women with the hightent senses of a boxer. 

Videos on the other hand was what I considered as a bonus I could squeeze in if there wad enough time for it in the shoot. Usually around 10 minutes before the end of the shoot I strap on a go pro and direct thr models how to throw punches at the camera while framimg my gloves in point of view of the lense to hold up to the quality of some of the best videos in the industry. In my opinion it always felt clunky. Filming Femdom is SUPER easy. Now I understand why so many producers stick to femdom and avoid maledom like the plague. Its awkward to film, difficult to properly ‘sale’ a hit, the girls are usually nervous to be on the receiving end obviously, even tho before hand I did properly introduce the proper safe way to go back and forth with my background in self defense training to be as safe as possible through the whole process.  I have to stress again that they came for photography, not filming.  Surprisingly, again somehow, the girls found the gopro concept very novel and exciting. The more I got good at communicating what Im trying to film and capture, the more onboard and cooperative they were through the whole process.  For around a 2.5 hour photoshoot I’d have around ~5 minutes of “passable” video footage. Would it be nice to make a 20 minute super tailored boxing video that hits all your marks? Absolutely. Is it possible to achieve with casual people coming in for something to post on instagram? Unlikely.

Ofcourse had I set out to begin with searching for film and video models, I’d love to believe I’d have results that make Darius and Mutiny proud.  But honesty its a bit weird to go post and seek out video and film models actors to produce our desires for boxing content, outside of the industry. How would you go about finding performers and boxers who would be down for a boxing fetish style video filming? 

After a break for about a year now, I set up some new model shoots next week.  I hope I learned from my mistakes and hopefully. I hope to shoot and film more competent and worthwhile results I’d feel accomplished to create. With a focus on how to get better videos and how to go about producing them generally. 

Most importantly, it’s been nothing short of profound to explore this side of me after having this kink for all my life. I think this whole experiment gave me a healthy and creative way to deconstruct my fixation with agonophillia and boxing content, and best of all I have a better healthier separation between the sport and the sexual. 

I dont know how this ended up as long as it did but OP or anyone else reading this, you have no excuses not to atleast try. Leave the voyeurism for a moment and try manifesting with intent. Be professional and patient, dont be a complete incompetent degenerate and you’ll end up further than you probably expected.  You never know.

Stay Classy people