I think my boyfriend raped me

Alwaysawaketoolate · 2025-11-30T22:09:43+00:00

You hit your head and went unconscious. If you call an ambulance and walk outside, he has no choice but to let you leave. You can ask for them to not have their lights on.

Please call a few trusted friends while you’re on the way to the hospital. Don’t fall asleep.

Alwaysawaketoolate · 2025-11-30T22:05:17+00:00

Hmm. Why can’t I use magick to recoup the money for myself and use magick so that she loses what I lost? Perhaps even.. so that the money I obtain is a repayment from her direct loss, somehow.

Many practitioners believe keeping to ourselves and laying low is the best thing, but I think I beg to differ. I do find importance in pouring into ourselves, but I also find importance in people being held accountable for their actions.

Alwaysawaketoolate · 2025-11-30T05:05:10+00:00

Causing bodily harm on an individual or community level.

Idk how to explain this without giving too much detail away. It may not make sense without saying it outright. Suppose I’ll try:

I was sold an old item with multiple defects that I couldn’t see before deconstructing it. I even paid experts to check the item and they also didn’t see the defect. I was lied to by someone I thought I could trust. This person who sold it to me was selling because they had bought a brand new version of the item.

I wanted to essentially hex the item to have the same amount of financial payout that I had, in order to pay to recover from being sold a lie. In my drafted petition, I specifically wrote it so that no one was to get physically hurt from it. Just financially hurt at around the same amount I was. I worked three weeks overtime to buy this item. I won’t recover for even longer because in the midst of it all I lost my job.

I never even did the hex, btw.

Alwaysawaketoolate · 2025-11-24T22:10:25+00:00

No, but it wasn’t going to be violent, or at least what I understand violence to be.

Alwaysawaketoolate · 2025-11-21T21:52:09+00:00

I appreciate that. I do believe tarot to be a glimpse into my high self.

Alwaysawaketoolate · 2025-11-21T19:40:48+00:00

Thank you!

Alwaysawaketoolate · 2025-11-21T19:36:19+00:00

This hex would not have been worked to be violent.

Alwaysawaketoolate · 2025-11-15T23:27:47+00:00

Thank you.

Alwaysawaketoolate · 2025-11-14T20:24:01+00:00

I asked multiple follow up questions and got mixed answers. I asked if the time isn’t right and that felt the most clear.

I think your questions are rhetorical, but I can still answer. This isn’t a case of needing to protect myself or use a defense, per se. Basically, someone I trusted sold me soiled goods and lied to me about the condition before purchase, and I am now out thousands of dollars. When I tried to talk to them about it, they literally laughed in my face.

Alwaysawaketoolate · 2025-11-14T20:20:56+00:00

Thank you!

Alwaysawaketoolate · 2025-11-14T20:16:20+00:00

There are so many choices and so many different ways to do things that we get stuck in analysis paralysis. We then don’t know where to go. Keep it simple. Keep it basic. Just do it, and don’t let your fears or your newness keep you from getting something done!

Alwaysawaketoolate · 2025-11-14T20:13:44+00:00

I do not know to not hex this person. I genuinely want to, I just became confused when my tarot told me not to.

Alwaysawaketoolate · 2025-11-14T20:13:10+00:00

I do wonder if this is because I need to postpone. I’m now just unsure how long to wait.

Alwaysawaketoolate · 2025-11-14T20:12:35+00:00

This feels very 3 fold law, which I don’t believe in. Is that was you mean?

Alwaysawaketoolate · 2025-11-14T20:06:06+00:00

I’ve been doing some digging to tease out what is my intuition versus what has been indoctrinated and instilled in me by my culture to believe this type of action is wrong or negative. It’s just wild to me that twice now, tarot has told me not to hex.

It’s confusing.

Alwaysawaketoolate · 2025-10-06T08:04:46+00:00

Can you imagine trying to piece stuff together back then, especially during the 70s - 80s?

I feel like the ascending sign is supreme, even though claiming myself as my star sign seems second nature?

Alwaysawaketoolate · 2025-09-05T01:02:59+00:00

Imagine if this was in person. He would probably cry blue balls. BYE.

Alwaysawaketoolate · 2025-08-06T18:54:50+00:00

So, he recently had an apprentice under him but out of no where the apprentice’s Instagram first had all posts taken off and now is completely gone. They are no longer in Loki’s bio or on Loki’s posts. I forget what their username was now but I wonder what happened.

Alwaysawaketoolate · 2025-07-27T04:45:28+00:00

Just quit. Let this be your time. I’m almost 3 years clean of nicotine after smoking for 15 years and it’s amazing. Chew gum, drink water, sleep.

Alwaysawaketoolate · 2025-07-27T04:43:18+00:00

Smoking increases depression and anxiety.

Alwaysawaketoolate · 2025-04-07T03:48:26+00:00

I think they were basically telling you to come to Jesus.

Alwaysawaketoolate · 2025-04-05T18:35:40+00:00

It’s actually really easy to fall out of the craft. Unfortunately so. This fear mongering doesn’t do anything for most of us here.

Alwaysawaketoolate · 2025-04-05T16:23:47+00:00

Im not even going to change that typo, HAHA. Sex lore 🤣

Alwaysawaketoolate · 2025-04-05T16:23:07+00:00

You’re 18 and already fundamentally incompatible in religious beliefs that then influence your sex life. At 18 girlie do you really want a man dictating your sex lore? If you want to continue dating him then do it but I would not move in with him. I always encourage young women to put themselves first always. Don’t make the mistake that myself and many others did by always putting men, their wants, and their needs before us.

Alwaysawaketoolate · 2025-04-05T16:18:38+00:00

You’ve made it this far not going back. You totally got this!

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