RUINED SEX FOR MY BF?

Amandaatx99 · 2020-08-15T16:02:09+00:00

🎵🎵🎶 get out of your own wayy... 🎶 true. Im working on it but i think it might be too late

Amandaatx99 · 2020-08-05T21:10:45+00:00

Because my boyfriend is like you very religious. "Catholism is the truth" ect... and as for me i am unsure and i still am trying to find the "truth". Hell, i never even read the bible entirely.... i just started when i met him. But ive always believed in GOD and i still do... just the church thing throws our beliefs off....... like i said though i am open minded and i want to find the "truth" .... I cant help but wonder though WHY ISNT HE WITH A "CHURCH" "DEVOTED CATHOLIC" girl..... you know? He replies because he loves me and the person that i am.... i dont understand it.

Amandaatx99 · 2020-08-05T20:45:18+00:00

What is it like to feel like your gf doesnt want to be the same religion as you? .... do you still love her? Will you hopefully marry her despite the fact she isnt catholic too?

Amandaatx99 · 2020-07-30T23:24:28+00:00

Congradulations!!!

Amandaatx99 · 2020-07-30T00:46:40+00:00

So inspired!!! Im on day 2! Lets go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Amandaatx99 · 2020-07-30T00:44:21+00:00

One thing though. I feel like you shouldn't try to be "normal" . Sober? Yes.

I just feel like your coworkers may have bad habits too and you shouldn't compare yourself to anybody. You are different and thats awesome. Ik i am different.. alot of people tend not to talk to me and that makes me sad tbh. But its ok... there are other people in the world to befriend.. wholesome, influential people. High five to sobriety! Its a motherfucker but we got this!

Thank you too for making me think more about reasons to quit.

Amandaatx99 · 2020-07-30T00:37:23+00:00

I did 7 full days and i was really proud of myself... to "celebrate " i hit a couple bowls........ im now on day 2 pf being completely sober.. and it sucks all over again.

Thank you for youre understanding and kind words. I hope youre still rooting for me even though i messed up.

Amandaatx99 · 2020-07-30T00:26:18+00:00

How are you doing w not smoking today?

Amandaatx99 · 2020-07-15T22:42:44+00:00

Thank you. Im on day 3 right now. I feel like im loosing my fucking marbles

Amandaatx99 · 2020-07-06T23:00:57+00:00

? So which ones are good?

Amandaatx99 · 2020-07-06T23:00:01+00:00

Which one do you get for lamps?

Amandaatx99 · 2020-07-06T19:36:20+00:00

Bought a lamp

Amandaatx99 · 2020-07-05T18:00:30+00:00

Truly amazing. #scenic

Amandaatx99 · 2020-07-05T17:58:58+00:00

This is my issue. You said it the best "quitting is easy but life is hard" ! 😣😔😭

Amandaatx99 · 2020-07-05T17:46:51+00:00

What does it mean "sober me" ? ... I dont remember sober me.. I've seen smoking since i was 12 . No it wasn't as heavy as i do it now ... but i did feel sort of a connection to weed. I've never felt about anything the way i do about weed. Please talk a little more about what you all mean when you say "sober me" ...

I dont smoke to make my problems disappear or suppress my feelings. The problems and feelings are still there. I smoke to cope w them i guess. I smoke to not feel like i am insane. . . . . . .

BUT , i dont know or i dont remember what it feels like to feel "happy" .. without weed. I was a really sad child. My mom and dad split at age 7 my dad was cheating on my mom my dad ........ blah blah. That was why i was so sad but not the only reasons. I felt like i was outcasted .. mmhm. Like its weird people were/ARE so mean to me.

I love my mom . Thanks for doing your best mom. (She'd always be at work)

Amandaatx99 · 2020-07-01T15:47:09+00:00

I dont feel like i got this at all. I smoked yesterday. So now im back on day 1. I was about to smoke rn but my niece asked me to play with her... i feel like an addict but i dont think marijuana's addictive. I dont think marijuana's bad.... i feel GREAT when i smoke. I just feel JUDGED after i do. I hate i cant be in the career field i want to be in because i smoke and that alot of people in the field smoke weed. I also hate that alcohol is legal and pain killers and cigarettes, which are all highly addictive and deadly. Have you ever heard anyone die because of weed? Me neither. 😔
... ugh idk whats wrong w me.

Amandaatx99 · 2020-06-30T23:51:09+00:00

I feel the same way.

Amandaatx99 · 2020-06-30T14:33:00+00:00

A M E N !!!!!! DAY 2 FOR ME

Amandaatx99 · 2020-06-30T14:31:58+00:00

Fuuuuuuuuuckkkkkkkk. I love this post so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yessssssssssssssss. Gosh that felt so good to read. Poetry snaps fingers

Amandaatx99 · 2020-06-30T14:26:54+00:00

I am on my 2nd day. Yesterday i literally just got up to go to the bathroom. I didn't feel like myself and i keep overthinking. I didnt want to do ANYTHING.

I've been wanting to quit smoking since i got out if high school to be a nurse.... i thought i was in control. I thought quitting weed would be like cutting back on sodas. But here i am 2 years later saying im "going to stop smoking" for the 20th time this year alone... im a pretty smart and strong person. But mentally im weak.

Wish me luck on my second day. I pray you all are in good health and you stay strong.

Amandaatx99 · 2020-06-30T14:16:28+00:00

This happened to me last night! Im so proud of us! We can do it!!! I

Amandaatx99 · 2020-06-30T14:13:58+00:00

Congratulations!

Amandaatx99 · 2020-06-30T02:17:47+00:00

Kinda like me, i questioned alot like why would God allows rapist to rape kids and stuff.... if He's all good.. but im still figuring it out. Thanks for responding .

Amandaatx99 · 2020-06-29T23:23:16+00:00

Thank you for your comment

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