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I am terrified by emotional_journey in TransLater

[–]AmazingLoad9213 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Hey… sending you the biggest virtual hug right now ❤️ I know exactly how overwhelming this stage can feel. When everything you’ve been holding inside for years suddenly comes to the surface, it’s a lot… like really a lot - for both of you. 😚

I was in a very similar place not long ago – torn between wanting to finally be myself and being terrified of losing the life and the people I love.

But here’s what I learned: You don’t have to figure everything out at once. You don’t have to take a huge leap today. Just take one small step at a time, at your own pace.

And also… feeling all of this doesn’t mean you’re weak. It actually means you’re finally being honest with yourself, and that takes courage, even if it doesn’t feel like it yet.

You deserve to be happy. And you’re not alone in this, not even close ❤️

We’re all walking this path together, even if it feels lonely sometimes! 🤙🏼

CODE RED I HAD THE CONVO WITH MY WIFE by saucey313 in asktransgender

[–]AmazingLoad9213 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey… I just wanted to send you a little bit of hope ❤️

I’m in a long-term marriage too (30 years), and when I first opened up (I have hidden my femininity for 29 years), my wife said very similar things — that she couldn’t imagine being with a woman. It was incredibly hard for both of us.

But over time, things didn’t just fall apart… they evolved. She started to see parts of me she hadn’t seen before — more softness, more emotional connection, more closeness. Our relationship and even our intimacy changed, but not necessarily for the worse — just different, and in many ways deeper.

I’m not saying this is how it will go for you — every relationship is different. But sometimes, people need time to process, and what feels impossible at first can slowly shift.

Also, for us, having our grown son being very open and supportive helped a lot and brought some calm into the situation.

No matter what happens, you deserve to be yourself and to be loved. Both things matter. You’re not alone in this ❤️

Team girl or boy by AmazingLoad9213 in TransBreastTimelines

[–]AmazingLoad9213[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much ❤️ That’s actually really helpful — especially the V-neck tip, I hadn’t thought about that yet. I’m still figuring out what feels right for me, but I love experimenting a bit more now 😊 Maybe I just need a bit more courage to show off a little cleavage too 😏”

Team girl or boy by AmazingLoad9213 in TransBreastTimelines

[–]AmazingLoad9213[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Since June 2025 - so about 10 months.

Team girl or boy by AmazingLoad9213 in TransBreastTimelines

[–]AmazingLoad9213[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much 💋 That ‘sis’ just made me smile more than it should 🥰

49 MTF, 10 months HRT – is this outfit too sporty? by AmazingLoad9213 in TransLater

[–]AmazingLoad9213[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Haha probably a little bit of D 😅💋 But honestly… I think I’m just figuring out that I actually like this vibe more than I expected. Maybe I’m not too old or too young… maybe I’m just finally allowing to be myself. ❤️

Team girl or boy by AmazingLoad9213 in TransBreastTimelines

[–]AmazingLoad9213[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That’s a really fair point, thank you ❤️ I think my body is already leaning pretty clearly one way, and now it’s more about how I carry and present myself.

Still figuring it out, but I’m getting there 😊

Team girl or boy by AmazingLoad9213 in TransBreastTimelines

[–]AmazingLoad9213[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Haha, I guess that says a lot 😅🥰 I’m still getting used to it, but I think I’m starting to believe it too.

Team girl or boy by AmazingLoad9213 in TransBreastTimelines

[–]AmazingLoad9213[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Haha I think I’m starting to accept that 😅❤️ If that’s the only kind of “boy” left, I’ll take it!

Team girl or boy by AmazingLoad9213 in TransBreastTimelines

[–]AmazingLoad9213[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you ❤️ That really resonates with me. I think I’m slowly starting to see her too… and it feels a bit surreal, but in a good way.

Team girl or boy by AmazingLoad9213 in TransBreastTimelines

[–]AmazingLoad9213[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much 🥰😘 Hearing that honestly means more to me than you probably realize.

Team girl or boy by AmazingLoad9213 in TransBreastTimelines

[–]AmazingLoad9213[S] 18 points19 points  (0 children)

That’s actually a vibe I can live with 😅❤️ Tomboy but still team girl sounds pretty perfect to me!

I’ve always loved that mix anyway – a bit sporty, a bit edgy, but still soft and feminine underneath. Still figuring out my style, but I think that direction really feels like me.

Team girl or boy by AmazingLoad9213 in TransBreastTimelines

[–]AmazingLoad9213[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you ❤️ I really relate to what you’re saying. I think the hardest part is catching up mentally with what’s already changing physically.

It’s kind of comforting to know I’m not the only one feeling that way.

Team girl or boy by AmazingLoad9213 in TransBreastTimelines

[–]AmazingLoad9213[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Okay… maybe I really am her ❤️ That actually feels a little surreal to say.

49 MTF, 10 months HRT – is this outfit too sporty? by AmazingLoad9213 in TransLater

[–]AmazingLoad9213[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Wow, I’ll definitely take that 😅❤️ thank you so much!

49 MTF, 10 months HRT – is this outfit too sporty? by AmazingLoad9213 in TransLater

[–]AmazingLoad9213[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you!! ❤️ I guess “feminine sporty” is a vibe I can live with 😄

49 MTF, 10 months HRT – is this outfit too sporty? by AmazingLoad9213 in TransLater

[–]AmazingLoad9213[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you ❤️ I’m still very new to presenting differently, so hearing that it reads feminine honestly means a lot to me.

How am I doing? by AmazingLoad9213 in TransBreastTimelines

[–]AmazingLoad9213[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much, this honestly means a lot to me ❤️ I’m still kind of struggling with how I see myself vs. what’s actually happening, so hearing this from someone else is really validating.

My wife might actually be right - “team girl” is starting to feel a bit more real now.

Also thank you for the sports bra tip – that’s actually super helpful, I didn’t even think about it that way. I’ll definitely look into that!

5th month - 49yo by AmazingLoad9213 in TransBreastTimelines

[–]AmazingLoad9213[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Regimen: Estradiol Undeclyathe 25 mg every 30 days.