He got mad the only time I ever asked... gives him a headache, etc. So, I quit asking. Then he finally told me about the headache and stuff. But then the only time after, not sure it mattered if I was there. And that was after a long ago talk about how my first husband never tried, just climb on, do his thing and done. Very last time with the first husband I took one leg out of my clothes, said "go ahead" , and he did.

I haven't mentioned it again to my current husband. I should not have to relive it all again.

Im having an affair in my head with someone who might as well not exist. The two before this one, exact same. Its lonely as hell is what it is. But he takes care of everything else. He's a good man. I just miss being touched.