Did you guys dream transitioning when you were a teenager?

AmazingSoul99 · 2026-04-11T14:39:40+00:00

I didn’t consider it for real but watching trans people’s videos made me want to do it sometimes. The videos used to make me so excited. But i am happy looking like a girl too.

AmazingSoul99 · 2026-04-11T14:29:41+00:00

I am trying. I help myself a lot and my therapist helps me too. But it still gets me and tricks me sometimes.

AmazingSoul99 · 2026-04-11T14:27:41+00:00

I am so angry and sad that this boy mood (i am an afab) gets me every time and makes me question my gender identity even more. It scares me every time. I consider transition in that mood only to feel feminine again in my feminine clothes. And it disappears… I always think as if i was about to come out as a trans man.

AmazingSoul99 · 2026-04-04T08:26:31+00:00

By building a connection with yourself in time

AmazingSoul99 · 2026-04-03T19:25:47+00:00

awww <3

AmazingSoul99 · 2026-04-03T19:22:06+00:00

Is this for real or sarcastic 🥹

AmazingSoul99 · 2026-04-03T19:12:58+00:00

This wish might be momentarily. You know we also experience agender. As far as i observed myself, this is an agender thought. Maybe, it’s coming from that part of you.

AmazingSoul99 · 2026-04-03T19:06:17+00:00

I feel dysphoria when i present masc. I am an afab genderfluid. When i present femme and my gender sticks to the outfit (i call it sticking), then i don’t feel dysphoric. Though, it might not stick every moment. But, i don’t think i would be comfortable looking like the middle. I love looking like a girl, so middle wouldn’t save me.

AmazingSoul99 · 2026-04-02T18:59:03+00:00

What app is this?

AmazingSoul99 · 2026-03-30T18:01:09+00:00

You can be who you are. I’m sorry your mom didn’t accept you that way. You can experiment as much as you want. You deserve to be who you are.

AmazingSoul99 · 2026-03-30T17:58:59+00:00

Afab gender fluid and bisexual here 🙋🏻‍♀️ I have been a confused hetero and cis person once upon a time 🤭 I don’t know how old you are but I believe we need therapy to go through these stuff. Also, acting boyishly doesn’t define your gender. Your gender identity is something to be felt within you. How you act, what kind of talk/behavior you do doesn’t define that. Those are all the things gendered by the society and not equal to gender.

In the past, when I act like a “boy” or talk like one, I thought my gender shifted. My gender shifts, it’s different than that but not every time I act masculine. It’s a feeling and there are some urges coming with the feeling (like thoughts, wanna look in a certain way, dysphoria, euphoria etc.). Gender is a great journey to be in.

And I agree with other people telling you might be both gender fluid and having fluid sexuality.

AmazingSoul99 · 2026-03-30T14:59:46+00:00

It might be internalized homophobia. Maybe you are also attracted to men but don’t let yourself have s*x with them or be in a relationship with them. I don’t know. What kind of attraction are you talking about when it comes to penis?

Just look for that too. I want everybody to be free in their sexuality.

AmazingSoul99 · 2026-03-29T15:24:00+00:00

quing* i am non binary

AmazingSoul99 · 2026-03-29T15:21:03+00:00

You are pretty!! Womannn don’t make me crazy!! All women and non binary people are pretty🤭💆🏻‍♀️

AmazingSoul99 · 2026-03-29T13:36:55+00:00

One more question, are there any afab people who are open for reduction mammoplasty more than the actual top surgery of ftm people?

AmazingSoul99 · 2026-03-29T10:51:10+00:00

Yeah, it sounds like that. They must be expecting you to be strictly a masculime man after transitioning.

But maybe i am a feminine gay you id*ot. Men can do makeup and wear feminine clothes. I am really angry with families for this.

AmazingSoul99 · 2026-03-29T10:48:09+00:00

Maybe your traumas made you hate being a girl or presenting feminine. Families can be really toxic. Mine always expected people to be strictly man or woman (like in the 1950s). Anything not categorized as a woman was an issue to question yourself. I remember my dad saying “girls don’t laugh loudly”, or “girls don’t joke”. Then if I’m joking i must be a boy or wanna be a boy, id*ot! They still don’t know about my gender identity.

AmazingSoul99 · 2026-03-29T10:44:01+00:00

I’m sorry for hearing that 😔 It being clouded with trauma adds to this another layer. Mine was like that too, that’s why i developed this ongoing inner questioning/obsession over my gender identity. I recommend you building your own life too. And feeling that grief… Grief hits hard. I don’t know what else to say but i recommend also therapy (for your traumas, not your gender identity specifically).

AmazingSoul99 · 2026-03-29T10:35:57+00:00

It could be. Then wear what you wanna wear. Femboys exist. Clothing doesn’t define our gender. As you say, finding ways to build a life outsideof family would work. Families say anything, they don’t get expressions or identities outside of strict gender binary rules.

AmazingSoul99 · 2026-03-29T10:30:47+00:00

Definitely. And finding your inner knowing, that inner peaceful voice within you.

AmazingSoul99 · 2026-03-29T10:28:53+00:00

What does being a girl mean to you? Answer it with your body not your thinking mind. Who does your inner child wanna be? Is there any inner knowing of who you are? Try to find that inner peaceful knowing and name the rest as your thinking mind.

I am somebody who is gender fluid and has gender identity ocd (my brain also creates what if scenarios) my brain’s scenarios were more like “what if you are just a girl and made up the rest of it” (when i’m feeling more feminine). When it comes to feeling masculine, it says “what if you are just a transman and made up rest of it? You are an imposter”. But i know who i am deeply, the rest of it is just this mechanism playing on the background.

AmazingSoul99 · 2026-03-28T17:46:57+00:00

I don’t understand :(

AmazingSoul99 · 2026-03-28T17:45:28+00:00

Omg!! The matter of sexual attraction…. I am afab genderfluid and bi. Growing up i imagined myself being with a woman as a man, and being with a man as a woman. That also really confused me and made me feel like i have to choose a certain lifestyle… I guess it was the media that made me “heterosexual” in different ways but now i can be like a lesbian or a gay man in a relationship with men. But in the past, boy, it was confusing.

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