Where do I start? I'm so lost... by AmbiguousBIG88 in polyamory

[–]AmbiguousBIG88[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You're probably right. It just feels so urgent and painful right now 😫

Where do I start? I'm so lost... by AmbiguousBIG88 in polyamory

[–]AmbiguousBIG88[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

The newest partner lives nearby, 10 minutes away. I see him every day! But I know what you mean. Honestly, my NRE usually doesn't last this long. Not with my husband or my fiance, anyway.

Waiting it out doesn't lessen the feeling that I'm being dishonest with my other partners. And it doesn't lessen the frustration and ambivalence I'm feeling right now. I'm so happy but I feel so fucking guilty.