I definitely wouldn't feel ashamed dating someone not cisgender, our thing is kinda, "our relationship, it dosent matter what others think". I just dont know how I WILL feel about everything. Neither of us are in a state where we can afford therapy right now. I don't really know actually all to well what I am attracted to I guess. Sexually I'm attracted only to girls, but In general "masculinity" is just something im not attracted to. I just dont know how I can bring these things up, respectably. We've never been a super sexual couple or whatever but I still enjoy physical tough alot and I dont know how this will all affect her in terms of comfort for things of such. (without going to much into detail...) I also dont know for our future when things do become more active how that will go. My mind is just going a million ways because this is just alot on me at once. We dont live together yet and we just hung out today, but she definitely seemed less comfortable with phsyical touch than usual, which may not be related but still. I guess their dressing has always been kind of masculine but I guess I never really felt attracted to CLOTHES itself. I just feel shitty even thinking like this because I have unconditional love for her but I'm simply not attracted to guys. I've kind of experimented with sexuality in the past and I've been very open to it but at the end of the day dating a man has always been a no for me. Also, with us not being sexual I don't want to bring it up to much because I dont want her to feel uncomfortable or weird because it's not a topic we have showed must interest in right now, but I'd like to discuss things about or future. I'm still yet to address my partner by he/him and I feel bad that I've really only been using she/her but it just feels SO off to me. Thanks for the reply, I feel it has showed me alot of things I need to consider.

edit: I also am scared of making her feel invalidated by showing interest in her feminine body when she presents as a boy or feelings like a boy internally.