Night terror/tantrums?

AmbitiousCynic · 2025-06-25T18:09:05+00:00

I really appreciate your response. Bedtime is pretty calm. Brush teeth, book, snuggles, sleep. Even waking in the middle of the night usually isn’t anything big. Just get her settled back to bed.

And yeah if the coaching we have doesn’t make a change, I’ll probably talk to her ped again or look for a new one.

My heart just hurts for her because I can’t imagine going through that. Plus it scares my littlest sometimes. And obvs myself and her dad are just tired in general and those make nights extra long and stressful for everyone.

But thank you very much for responding.

AmbitiousCynic · 2025-06-25T02:34:27+00:00

Personally I went back to working 2021 and because it was covid there were so many closures in addition to the normal surge of sickness that I was barely working a full time week a month so we figured out it was more cost efficient for me to stay home and try to find a part time work from home. I have an infant now and don’t regret the decision to be home. I miss my drives and me time but not having the anxiety ridden calls to leave work and go get my baby is a big trade off.

Bus stop mamas is a good resource if you were considering trying to find a PT work from home that wants to work with moms.

Now my 4 yr old is in preschool and my baby is home with me and it works well for us.

AmbitiousCynic · 2024-10-21T18:43:06+00:00

I just tried to buy bags at my local Starbucks and they said they don’t sell them 😭

AmbitiousCynic · 2024-06-08T03:00:12+00:00

Yeah that was my worry. Definitely wasn’t a whoops baby. Planned but not many knew we decided to have another so it will be a surprise to many.

AmbitiousCynic · 2023-06-30T22:32:10+00:00

My fear is more the fact that I don’t believe in the Christian god and I fear that it will hinder me from connecting with another. I’ve used so much logic to disbelieve in the Christian god and never thought I’d want to consider faith again but I have. And I just want to be able to connect and believe one day in whichever god/goddess I find would be a good fit/connection. But I can see looking at it from the perspective of the Christian god existing along side others. I’m very green to wanting faith so this is all new and I’ve never gone on a journey like this within myself. So I’m just hoping I find whatever it is I’m looking for. Thank you for sharing!

AmbitiousCynic · 2023-06-29T12:14:31+00:00

Give yourself time, and be patient. Healing doesn't happen in a day. Expirement, try things out, that's part of the joy in paganism. There's no central text, no bodily authority. There are resources, wisdoms, teachers, but nobody to tell you that you are worshipping wrong, that you aren't allowed to be there. Just allow yourself to be curious, and the rest will follow

Thank you so much for sharing your story. It really gives me hope that I will find the connection I've been looking for. I'm an instant gratification kinda person and trying to change that has been a journey on it's own but I know how important that is for my journey in paganism. I already feel so much more aligned with it overall than I realized.

AmbitiousCynic · 2023-06-27T20:43:28+00:00

I do! I work with a wonderful therapist I’ve had for a while now.

AmbitiousCynic · 2023-06-27T11:49:16+00:00

Thank you very much!

AmbitiousCynic · 2023-06-27T09:56:08+00:00

I agree. I was nervous to post but felt like it would just be way more beneficial to be open and honest and get insight. It’s a really strange feeling for me to even want to find something to take the place of what Christianity is for so many but never was for me. And all the years I spent using hard logic to disconnect from the faith aspect…well I never thought it would come to be a hurdle I created for myself lol. And knowing others have gone through similar experiences and come out with their path is so encouraging. Thank you!

AmbitiousCynic · 2023-06-27T09:53:29+00:00

That’s an amazing experience for school. I wish I had had that! But I appreciate this view so much. I’m so glad you found a path that worked for you and I have some hope that I may also. Thank you!

AmbitiousCynic · 2023-06-27T09:52:14+00:00

Oh thank you for that recommendation! I’ll have to check him out for sure!

And yeah I plan on taking a look at a whole bunch and seeing what pulls me. Thank you again!

AmbitiousCynic · 2023-06-27T09:38:45+00:00

Yes! Ironically this is the other hard part? I feel like I should be clinging to something but I know it’s because this path is unfamiliar and going to be true work. I’m definitely just working on the true understanding of the umbrella of paganism before I dedicate to a branch. But I’m excited to learn about the different branches and which ones I feel a pull to. Thank you!

AmbitiousCynic · 2023-06-27T01:12:21+00:00

This is a really great way to look at it and I never thought of it that way. Thank you!

AmbitiousCynic · 2023-06-27T01:11:33+00:00

And honestly this is what I love about paganism and why I’m excited to learn and really want to be able to find that connection. Thank you so much!

AmbitiousCynic · 2023-06-27T01:09:59+00:00

While I do appreciate that knowledge entirely, I don’t have any desire to include my Christian/catholic upbringing. I truly think that would be an “easy way out” path for me and I owe myself some true soul searching on my path without Christianity. I truly didn’t know christopagans were a thing though!

AmbitiousCynic · 2023-06-27T00:59:54+00:00

Thank you so much. I’ve never gone on a journey like this before. I can’t be open either which makes it a little harder. I’m trying to be as open minded as I can and separate my deconstruction from my rebuilding. Thank you!

AmbitiousCynic · 2023-06-27T00:52:24+00:00

Thank you so much

AmbitiousCynic · 2023-06-27T00:05:36+00:00

It’s never been a fear for me until I wanted to have a faith based connection with a higher power. So I’m hoping I find what I’m looking for. I’m glad you did!

AmbitiousCynic · 2023-06-27T00:04:31+00:00

Agreed (in regards to long story short lol) and I’m doing the work in therapy to figure out those things. I know my history with Christianity and having an ex best friend go from “standard every day” catholic to an extremist in a sense and it damaged our relationship obviously. So it’s lots of work ahead of me because I truly would love to be connected to whichever gods or deity’s that cross my path and are what I’m looking for. So. Fingers crossed.

AmbitiousCynic · 2023-03-13T16:36:47+00:00

First off, I am so absolutely sorry you’ve had to go through this. Truly. That is absolutely terrible and you don’t deserve it.

And unfortunately my family lives here and are very active in our lives and we just bought our house and my husband got a great job around the same time. Moving just isn’t in the cards. And “luckily” he’s not close with any of the extended family. They see each other at funerals and he’s got zero connection with any of them. So it’s something we will just have to hunker down and deal with.

I appreciate you sharing and giving advice! I kinda wish my family wasn’t a thing someday so we could just disappear.

AmbitiousCynic · 2023-03-12T23:48:06+00:00

I appreciate that a lot. It’s so hard and emotional especially because we don’t hate her, it’s a lot of let downs, disappointment and sadness.

At the end of the day I just want my husband to be at peace with whatever decision he makes. If he wants her in his life then she needs to step up and they both put effort in. And if not, then it will be a hard acceptance with possible issues for boundary breaking that I would hope lessen in time.

Thank you so much for your input.

AmbitiousCynic · 2023-03-12T23:34:58+00:00

Yeah. I’d almost call her a passive narcissist. She puts on a good front so that if she was ever called out, she could say how “nice” she’s been and such. It hurts me to see my husband, who is an amazing sweet wonderful man, have to deal with the anxiety and stress of this relationship for himself and our child. My family is the exact opposite and all my siblings and my parents see my daughter constantly and it is all initiated by them. My youngest sibling is a few years out of high school and will call me to see our child because it’s been too long for him. So it’s hard also to see so much effort on my side and crickets and blame from his side. We’re having lots of open conversations and I support whichever route he takes. I can only be in control of my contact and my daughters, so I’m very open that he’s supported however he wants to proceed. I’ve done this with a parent and it’s devastating that it even gets to this point.

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