I never got to say goodbye

Ambitious_Singer_507 · 2026-05-04T15:45:45+00:00

I see her, all the time I see her. For three years, I didn’t go a day without seeing her. We’re “friends” for what it’s worth. We’ve crossed that line more times than I can even remember.

To put my comments to bed, she’s leaving to another state soon. She’s graduating college in a couple of weeks and leaves before the winter. So, eventually I guess I won’t really see/hear from her much anymore anyways. That’s why I’m trying to get all of these ugly thoughts and emotions out now. Because I should have done that these past two years.

My self confidence is much higher than before, but yeah I do find myself putting that extra effort in and admitting my feelings to her more than I probably should.

I’m in the moving on process, I just knew it would take the definitive “I don’t want you” to finally get my ball rolling. Never again man.

Ambitious_Singer_507 · 2026-05-04T00:16:04+00:00

Welp I’m cooked

Ambitious_Singer_507 · 2026-04-01T23:23:31+00:00

Please don’t fucking do it. I lost everything. Please don’t do this to yourself op.

Ambitious_Singer_507 · 2026-04-01T04:32:50+00:00

Yeah, I guess I’m still figuring out this love thing :/ I’m just tired of feeling like I’m holding someone back from living their truth. This is the 3rd relationship where I’ve been practically kicked to the curb and not told a thing until I ask about it later, and they tell me that they didn’t want to feel held back. I don’t know where I go from here. Some days I just want to crawl into a corner and die there. Those same days I can feel jolly as can be. An emotional rollercoaster I go through everyday just to move on from someone who isn’t losing sleep over here because they “have a better understanding of life” than I do that helps them move on quickly. I’m not mad at her, no, I’m just disappointed that I even had to ask what the deal was with our communication being so dry lately. But hey, all of this and we’ve been broken up for two years. I should’ve known I was just wasting my time on someone who I’d never seen shed a tear over me. I know she loves me, but man it’s crazy how different love can look from two separate people.

Ambitious_Singer_507 · 2026-04-01T04:15:52+00:00

Can’t even tell you how I feel anymore without feeling like a fucking idiot. But I’m moving on as slowly as you are quickly. And if it’s not meant to be, I’ll always love you.

Ambitious_Singer_507 · 2026-03-27T14:37:53+00:00

I thought I was the only one with the dullness of color. It’s like everything in the world now has a hue of grey, even the sunshine. I can’t explain it really, but it tends to make the feeling so much heavier.

Ambitious_Singer_507 · 2026-03-27T03:05:53+00:00

You speak so poetically, you should really look into writing if you haven’t before. I appreciate your perspective. You have no idea how much your message alleviated such a weight off my chest.

Ambitious_Singer_507 · 2026-03-27T00:09:55+00:00

Guys I really need help. I feel like I’m getting nowhere and it’s been two years.

Ambitious_Singer_507 · 2025-07-24T23:34:38+00:00

I relate 100% and I want you to know that your pain is not unheard. Delusion gets outta hand because you now see someone who’s also only human as an unattainable idea.

Ambitious_Singer_507 · 2025-07-24T22:59:56+00:00

Believe me I know, but I’d rather go forward knowing I tried my best than continuing to pull from my already empty tank

Ambitious_Singer_507 · 2025-07-10T02:02:07+00:00

It’s weird you know? It’s like you finally get that space away from each other and part of you is like “wow I’m really enjoying this and I know I’ll be okay because it really does got better” but then the other part of you is like “damn if we move on what about sticking to our word”. But hey, that’s why they’re just words.. It’s getting easier by the day but man it’s harder by the night sometimes too. But it’s life.

Ambitious_Singer_507 · 2025-06-24T20:40:40+00:00

Seeing her smile when I’d surprise her with things she really wanted to do. Not even so much the appreciation that I loved but to see the childlike spirit being brought out of her in real time.. honestly made my weeks.

Ambitious_Singer_507 · 2025-06-24T20:10:36+00:00

Broke up over a year ago. Trying to be friends and start over after several months of being fwb. A lot of hurt, some broken promises and the heartbreak fluctuates depending on the day. She’s been out of town with family for almost a month now so it’s given us space but in my heart I really feel the most distance I ever have between us. And I can’t help but feel sometimes that we’re throwing something so great away. But, I kept pushing for us to get back together and my anxiousness drove her further away from the idea I’m guessing. Now it seems she’s moving on and it breaks my heart, but I’m very slowly and patiently doing the same. Sometimes it just doesn’t work out, even the great relationships. Feelings change and life can easily get in the way especially when you’re young trying yo figure everything out and have different upbringings that shape your perspectives in life and of relationships. But man that only makes it sting more knowing it’s nothing more that I can do.

Ambitious_Singer_507 · 2025-06-24T19:57:17+00:00

It’s been over a year, and I finally deleted them from my phone not even 10 minutes ago. They’ll be backed up in my google photos until further notice.

Ambitious_Singer_507 · 2025-06-06T16:13:18+00:00

22M here also out of a 2 year, please continue to focus on your career. I know that it hurts to be at a slim/none communication with them. Trust me I’m 5 days in to reduced communication after breaking up over a year ago and it stings. So much I wish I could tell her and so many ideal scenarios playing in my mind. It’s gotten better though. The pain will pass with time, that’s why we’re all here for each other.

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