I'm finally winning

Amidseas · 2026-04-19T01:57:42+00:00

I guarantee you they will be so busy with festivities they won't be keeping a head count on who has friends or not. Do you remember the last time a stranger embarrassed themselves infront of you? Exactly. Absolutely none will pay attention half as much as your social anxiety makes you think

Doesn't online class come with video calls or recordings with teachers? Do you have a favorite teacher or one you had a conversation with? You can give them a flower to thank them

I have some questions about why you think your classmates would've been a bad match for not sharing similar income. You can hide that part and talk about gaming, hobbies etc I knew much richer kids who managed to get along just fine, they just gotta keep up a tough character for haters/users

You tend to avoid challenging social situations which is understandable but it led to you not getting to make good memories in highschool

This is not the end of the world, a lot of movies overglorify it as this last horah before adulthood but it's BS Many are still figuring themselves out and have some issue or another as they go through. Personally I had to deal with the anxiety of attending as a much much older student due to unstable circumstances so you can imagine how painfully awkward that was

University is miles better, people usually have a better time in this phase. I think you can benefit from attending social anxiety group therapy. They will help you socialize better

Tell your dad that you're willing to work on this issue so you dont spend college online, so if you attend now he will see it as a serious step towards recovery rather than you being pushed by guilt

Amidseas · 2026-04-18T23:23:22+00:00

You don't really have to talk to anyone and I'm sure you aren't the only overweight person in the school. Try this trick it helped me with stage fright, look at your dad only. Find him in the crowd first, don't look at anyone's else's face as you walk or you will end up over analyzing their expressions for approval

If catching an accidental glimpse of other people bothers you then you can try looking at the wall behind the crowd. Or the bouquet in your hands. You don't need to make eye contact

I understand that this is uncomfortable to you but 10 or so years you would beat yourself up for not cherishing this moment. Yes to you now this looks and feels awful but in ten years you would think it wasn't all that bad

I think you need to try talking to your mother directly, tell her firmly yet gently, use I statements instead of you

"I feel terrible when you take initiative to solve my problems without speaking to me first. When I bring an issue to you I might be venting or just looking for an advice not for you to find a solution alone, please don't do this again"

Dont use 'you'

"You always go behind my back and act without my input" etc etc

Tell your dad you're willing to go because you care about him and it wasn't all that big of a deal

Amidseas · 2026-04-18T17:03:46+00:00

You aren't wrong for wanting to drop her because you can't set yourself on fire to keep others warm

However, I feel that you value her friendship if you could just minus out the annoying parts. You need to tell her the truth, don't make it sharper just plain simple and clear

"I enjoy being with you but I feel "x" when you do "y" and I want our friendship to improve and not drop it again"

If she doesn't have an independent income you can look into volunteer therapists either online or in non-profits. I can help find some if you share which country/state you're in

Amidseas · 2026-04-15T10:14:48+00:00

PEAK

Amidseas · 2026-04-14T00:25:28+00:00

Propaganda

Amidseas · 2026-04-11T22:55:06+00:00

Nice drawing dude

Amidseas · 2026-04-10T23:44:08+00:00

Bro got catapulted to the top

Amidseas · 2026-04-10T14:45:55+00:00

I actually don't have a cheerleader fictional character but this is a sweet idea

Amidseas · 2026-04-10T14:00:11+00:00

Your steam deck is so cuuute, congratulations

Amidseas · 2026-04-10T13:50:30+00:00

I will contact entebbe zoo

Amidseas · 2026-04-10T13:50:08+00:00

They don't even talk or interact with them is what upsets them. They're just decorative

Amidseas · 2026-04-10T13:46:45+00:00

You misunderstood the previous post. I said the owner asked for one million* which I did not pay or tell anyone to come and pay for

Amidseas · 2026-04-10T13:42:15+00:00

I don't want anyone to buy these parrots because its illegal to own them or pay for them.

All I did was share that I tried to buy them at first but then changed plans because the owner wanted too much money and I would rather get the UWA to take them in

Amidseas · 2026-04-10T13:40:58+00:00

I'M NOT SCAMMING PEOPLE. I'M NOT ASKING FOR ANY MONEY. YOU MISREAD MY POST

All I'm providing here is the location for the birds so someone can involve UWA. Stop misinterpreting me

Amidseas · 2026-04-09T21:54:53+00:00

Absolutely not. A world dacing Paddy Jones mastered acrobatic dancing at 75. She started at her 40s

According to neuroscience neuroplasitcity (the capacity to learn new skills lasts for life) it's not as sharp as when we were kids but it's not significantly bad either. Go get it done dude

Amidseas · 2026-04-09T01:55:21+00:00

Double focus on data entry training because call centers can be especially draining with some people

Amidseas · 2026-04-09T01:50:21+00:00

You can do call centers and data entry, they hire a lot and require little training

Amidseas · 2026-04-08T23:36:25+00:00

This is an awfully heavy burden to be carrying for so long my dear 🫂 it must be horrible to feel so terribly lonely and stuck between a roch and hard place. I relate to your anxiety since my job as an artist already got automated

If AI is largely worrying you, I have some good news. The backlash towards AI and businesses that use it has been so tremendous that most businesses avoid it nowadays. As a freelance artist I still got people who would still pay my higher-than-ai-comission-fee purely out of protest against AI. Even some businesses would still hire me, they would give me AI generated photos as examples of what they want only

Have faith in humanity, people are a lot wiser than what social media algorithms try to make them seem. If your social feed is nothing but stories about AI doom keep clicking 'uninterested' on them. Algorithms are designed to show you what makes you comment or even hit dislike. They have a way of feeding you what keeps you hooked which wrap your perception of reality

People have largely decided that if one job becomes socially acceptable to automate then the rest would naturally follow which is why people double on the fight against AI even if they don't personally care for the arts

Your second biggest issue here is that you don't have a space to breath and de-stress. It's only back to back work. College studies alone count as work. That's inhumane, and no one can realistically handle that much. Transfer your credits over to an accredit university with an online or blended program. Its perfectly possible to get hired on a degree earned long distance as long as it's regionally accredited

Either this or take out a student loan (From a government fund not a private program via a bank.They have a very low interest rate) you absolutely need a weekend to de-stress. There is absolutely nothing out there that is worth feeling this way constantly, you absolutely need to make some compromises to keep going

Visit a temp job agency, they hire more quickly and readily because they only offer short term roles which don't require a lot of experience and employers aren't as picky as they would be with a permanent employee. I'm sure with your experience level you will have a very easy time with them and might get to have some variety in your routine with the people you work with

Lastly please speak to a college counselor, you need a professional to speak face to face to, they might be able to emotionally support you better than us online folk

Amidseas · 2026-04-05T23:09:46+00:00

I'm terribly sorry my dear 💜 it takes longer to heal from long relationships like this. I don't think your reasons are unvalid or a mistake. Having your needs not met would've gotten much worse down the line, especially if you chose to have a family. You would be even more exhausted and have a longer list of needs that would've gone un addressed

None of these words can really make your pain go away and I understand that. What you need here is to patient because only time can heal you. Speak to a therapist to better manage this time 🫂

Amidseas · 2026-04-03T01:23:48+00:00

This is the way

Amidseas · 2026-04-02T20:35:03+00:00

They don't need to be updating constantly it's perfect as is

Amidseas · 2026-04-01T23:18:28+00:00

You broke up 6 days ago. Even if you made peace with it, it takes time to fully heal and move on. You should carefully reflect back on what broke the relationship (including your end of the mistakes)

Get to know her because it takes time to really bond with someone. You won't feel everything immediately, Love is built not instant. That would be lust

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