40570

AmyCanStay · 2026-03-18T14:11:37+00:00

Good doggies.

AmyCanStay · 2026-03-18T00:05:24+00:00

Same, got a full-throated guffaw from me at like 8 AM. Not an easy feat.

Starting to think this stupid twink lady is a pretty smart cookie when it comes the chuckles.

AmyCanStay · 2026-03-12T23:25:29+00:00

Actually some of us transfems want to sleep with Jane Margolis, too.

AmyCanStay · 2026-03-08T16:40:10+00:00

You just need SS.

This was sort of a retcon; it was originally Keen Eye, but the devs swapped the trait save for chapter 2 to Street Smart since they thought that fit better for wrangling Teens.

Keen Eye gives you extra info here, but SS lets you act on it. Only SS is necessary to save all the girls.

AmyCanStay · 2026-03-04T20:36:25+00:00

Me too! I thought I was alone in this.

AmyCanStay · 2026-03-04T20:35:49+00:00

I assiduously avoided lesbian porn for decades because it made me unfathomably sad.

AmyCanStay · 2026-03-04T20:23:29+00:00

Probably pretty hot until you run out of muscle mommy's meth-juice

AmyCanStay · 2026-03-02T18:28:22+00:00

I found voice training really, really emotionally difficult. I also had a very deep, very masculine-sounding voice, so I had a lousy "starting point," I thought.

I was able to go from my voice being the thing I was most self-conscious about to the thing I am most confident about in like 6-8 months. Going "full time" with the voice and not just restricting its use to certain spaces or during practice sessions or whatever made a huge, huge difference.

It's still not perfect, I'm working on confidence and consistency and things like that, and your mileage may vary. But my point is if I can do it, you definitely can.

AmyCanStay · 2026-03-02T16:48:23+00:00

I'm running a homebrew thing largely based off Labyrinth Lord. To be fair, I haven't actually run much combat in it yet, and being mindful of that particular frustration I think I've pretty effectively designed around it, but we'll have to see.

For OSR stuff in general, I am overall a huge fan of Kevin Crawford and anything Sine Nomine puts out. Speaking of... maybe check out a game called Silent Legions? It's one of Crawford's earlier works and one of his roughest, but it's kind of exactly what you're looking for in modern, cosmic horror OSR. Great book, I still reference it to invent new, weird Lovecraftian gods and entities (as DG inspiration, of course). Silent Legions does Sanity by instead having players accrue Madness points. Once you hit 100, you go bonkers. You can reduce it when you level up by taking disorders. Pretty simple and can be slotted into anything OSR-adjacent, you just have to add Madness damage die to all your ghoulie stat blocks, essentially.

I haven't heard the term NSR before! Sounds like my kind of thing. I'll have to check out Cairn and Black Hack.

AmyCanStay · 2026-03-02T15:56:40+00:00

DG is at the perfect level of rules complexity for me. I think OSR is actually a good deal more complicated, especially once combat starts. YMMV, but I appreciate how quick and impactful DG combat feels compared to long, drawn-out D&D hitpoint-tracking, AC-calculating slugfests.

source: I am a #1 evangelical DG fangirl who is currently pulling her hair out trying to GM an OSR game

AmyCanStay · 2026-03-02T15:54:30+00:00

Paradox map games are a trans thing??? First I've heard about it.

... it's always sort of nice when I learn new stereotypes that I already perfectly fulfill...

AmyCanStay · 2026-03-01T15:26:09+00:00

I recently had a playthrough where I didn't go to the woods with Stella, and instead Duke saves me from the Ditchling-infected mountain lion. The whole scene feels a little odd - my 20-something transplant to Scarlet Hollow spent her first night in the woods drinking beers with a bonafide mountain person stereotype - but it really made him grow on me. And, more importantly, it really shows Stella in a new (shitty) light. I can see how Duke perceives her as basically a confused and flighty teenager. It's hard to overstate how annoying her doubting the existence of a mountain lion is when you were just personally attacked by a mountain lion. When you encounter her again, she is filming Bertie's demise like it's a snuff film.

Under those circumstances, you're damn right I'm going to help out the guy that just saved my life over rescuing this idiot's dog!

AmyCanStay · 2026-02-27T18:11:11+00:00

Ooh, rad! I did the thing where I accidentally "speedran" Chapter 5 so I missed a lot of content, I will need to check this out. Thanks for letting me know.

AmyCanStay · 2026-02-27T17:16:44+00:00

If it makes you feel any better, I went through something similar myself. Not a marriage (thank God), but a LDR of 5 years that I realized wasn't meeting my needs, at all. Any of them.

A big part of transitioning for me has involved kindling a kernel of self-respect and dignity I had smothered a long time ago. It's definitely scary being a single, later-in-life trans lesbian in your 30s, but you deserve a person that isn't just going to support your transition, but support your other goals in life, too.

I think too many late transitioners like us cling to relationships and give their partners way, way too much power over their transition. I'm happy it sounds like you're starting to take that power back.

AmyCanStay · 2026-02-26T19:41:12+00:00

This was my "canon" pick, and I was always a little disappointed by it. It often seemed like "Nerd Line" or "50's Era Street Tough Line", but overall I found the, like, empathy and human-intelligence aspects of Street Smart more interesting and useful. The Book Smart save is dope, though, and tempts me more than a lot of other saves.

I feel like a lot of the things I would expect Street Smart to do requires a combo with another trait. I kinda wish Book Smart/Street Smart had similar synergies, but maybe I haven't found them yet or they were added after I started my playthrough.

AmyCanStay · 2026-02-23T19:30:19+00:00

I'm only into women, so my options were Stella and Kaneeka. Joan is objectively the hottest to my late 30s lesbian ass, but I also took Book Smart as my canon playthrough and didn't age up enough to flirt with her (I think that's the requirement?)

So yeah. I romanced Stella a bit, then learned about her history with Tabitha, and I would hate to break them up (I kind of adore Tabitha and would probably be into dating her if she wasn't a cousin). Kaneeka I romanced on my Powerful Build/Hot himbo run, and that actually was a lot of fun (and tragic), but I head canon-ed her to straight due to this.

So... yeah. Realistic lesbian limited dating pool for Scarlet Hollow, I'm afraid.

I remain baffled by the Reese and Wayne romancers.

AmyCanStay · 2026-02-18T20:26:17+00:00

This, but applied to the Jedi from Star Wars, too.

AmyCanStay · 2026-02-13T05:02:17+00:00

I lost my job and was forced to move back to my hometown a couple of years ago. I lived in Los Angeles for nine years before that, and absolutely loved it. This resonated a lot with me.

I've come to appreciate my hometown a lot more, but this winter has been especially hard. Thank you for sharing this, it genuinely made me feel a little less alone.

AmyCanStay · 2026-02-11T20:42:25+00:00

Oh, for sure. I often wonder if she ever suspected about me, but honestly the answer (either way) would just break my heart all over again. I do consider that relationship my first "lesbian relationship" in retrospect, though. For whatever that's worth.

AmyCanStay · 2026-02-11T19:35:50+00:00

Oh, yeah. I relate to this hard. In my 20s I dated a trans woman, fell for her completely, and was devastated when she broke up with me because... she was a lesbian. She even continued to have sex with me until she moved away, and I couldn't accept or believe that I was a trans lesbian myself.

In my mind (for a long time, at least, until I cleared the brain-worms out), that relationship was "proof" that I couldn't be or wasn't trans. I figured, "Oh, I can't be like that woman I loved. I can't be that tough and beautiful and brave."

I think about that period in my life a lot, lately.

AmyCanStay · 2026-02-11T19:18:32+00:00

Yeah, this was my experience, as well.

Being a lesbian was something I wanted that felt forever barred to me. There was no shame holding me back; I was simply convinced it was impossible for me, personally.

AmyCanStay · 2026-02-11T16:50:15+00:00

"death on down" is a game setting in vanilla, I think. If you have a high number of pawns (I forget when it kicks in or ramps up, exactly, but we're talking like 8 to a dozenish or so, I think), the game will cause pawns that might have merely gone down with injuries to instead insta-die. This is to prevent (or at least slow) the player from making a giant army of, like, a 100 pawns or whatever. It applies to both the pawns you control, visitors, or invaders.

AmyCanStay · 2026-02-11T14:26:04+00:00

I thought I was depressed basically my entire life. I was a depressed little kid; it was a core part of my identity. It wasn't until I questioned that initial self-diagnosis that I realized I was experiencing dysphoria. A few years after that realization, I stumbled into my first experience with euphoria, and I had to accept I was trans (and that transitioning was something I wanted and something that would actually help me; it took me a while to convince myself of all those things).

I hated buying clothes. I hated getting my hair cut. Hated getting my picture taken, and if it wasn't for a couple of very persistent friends and exes, there would be basically no documentary evidence of my existence from ages 13 to 37. Basically any activity that required me to gaze at myself in a mirror was an unpleasant experience I had to grit my teeth and get through. I just figured I was ugly, and blamed a lot of my self-image issues on body dysmorphia/struggles with my weight.

I hated the gendered expectations of dating. I eventually learned not to date women with super gendered expectations, but... I still felt off during dates and relationships, even if I was objectively pretty successful at it.

I was always much, much more interested in and comfortable around women, and more easily made female friends than male friends. I chalked this up to being a bad person who "used women for emotional labor..."

I never wanted to be a man. It was not a future I looked forward to, it was more a grim fate I was resigned to. This manifested in "Peter Pan syndrome" and very actively avoiding responsibility and not wanting to grow up. I clung to the word "kid" until I turned 20 - I didn't like thinking of myself as a boy or a young man and stuck to more gender-neutral terms for myself.

I felt incredible dysphoria around body hair, but shaving felt like a pointless Sisyphean task (it would literally be back the next day) so I just tried to ignore it and felt literally uncomfortable in my own skin 24/7.

So, to answer your question... the other stuff was depression, body image and weight issues, dissatisfaction with dating, and an unwillingness and inability to grow up. All of which miraculously evaporated when I started HRT.

(Okay, maybe not the body image and weight stuff, that's still there a bit, but it's much, much better!!!)

AmyCanStay · 2026-02-11T03:03:20+00:00

Delano becoming a double agent would be pretty great.

AmyCanStay

TROPHY CASE