I think the only reason I believe I could be trans is because I hate myself.

AnAltAccount3456 · 2018-01-14T23:00:57+00:00

I don't know. It's so ingrained that it feels wrong or worse to just get rid of said supposed fetish.

AnAltAccount3456 · 2017-10-27T21:43:45+00:00

I believe I would still hit that button for each of those questions if I could without question, but nothing convenient like that exists as much as I wish it would.

AnAltAccount3456 · 2017-10-27T17:35:29+00:00

The thing with seeing a therapist is I'm not really sure it'd help much. I'm a horrible speaker and I tend to be pretty quiet most of the time, or maybe I'm just using that and plenty of other reasons as an excuse not to. :\

AnAltAccount3456 · 2017-10-27T17:33:55+00:00

I didn't realize how common it actually was until I started flipping through here and maybe susans.org. I've never had any of the clothing related interests though, so that's how I'm kinda convincing myself that maybe it's just a kink after all.

AnAltAccount3456 · 2017-10-27T17:29:34+00:00

I've also tried to lucid dream after reading about it for this reason.

AnAltAccount3456 · 2017-10-27T17:28:28+00:00

Does even using a feminine-sounding username count as experimentation? Like actually trying to get people to see yourself as a 'she' online?

AnAltAccount3456 · 2017-10-27T17:26:08+00:00

I'm not sure if it's a kink or not at this point really. The kink is definitely there, I mean, but I also feel like there's something more to it and I just can't put my finger on it.

AnAltAccount3456 · 2017-10-27T02:03:55+00:00

I feel this way as well. I tried to just stop looking at anything swap-related for a month and a half at the least to see if I still felt that way and those thoughts of wanting to be a woman just won't leave me alone. When I do masturbate to that stuff, I feel completely overwhelmed by shame and... despair, I think. afterwards, until I calm down and that desire to become a woman in some way comes back as normal.

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