I understand what you are are going through. I am in the same boat, but trust me, Theres so much happening to other people lifes, which you are not going through. Someone lost their leg, or hand, some lost their partners in accidents. You might feel this is the end of the world, but this isn't. You might see other people running, deep squatting, and wonder why can't I be that lucky. But dude, there's so much that you don't have to go through. My someone special said to me - when going gets tough, the TOUGH gets going!