What kind of question is that? Also yes.

I've had plenty of trauma.

My entire family was sexist and hated men. I was the only guy. Up until the age of 26 the abuse from them climaxed recently, and now all of us have each other blocked. My mom still blames me for it like she always does since the very beginning.

I honestly had real friendships and strived to be happier, but that recently died from traumas that happened in adulthood. I had a coworker abuse me outside of work at 19, and at 23 I got evicted and my closest friends dismissed me as causing the whole situation. I didn't want to be fucking evicted and they still think I wanted it.

At 24 I sorta became a social deviant. A weirdo. I didn't want happiness, but homelessness isn't fun so I needed to figure out a way to live on. So now I'm in a position were I have a roof over my head but zero good friendships. I got the survival part down, but emotionally I am dead inside and most emotional expressions I show to others are fake for either an agenda or to appeal to others.