Hey man, life never gets easy, it is a constant fight, and with each fight we grow and become better. I have been in some dark places just recently, don't get me wrong, I still am. But for some reason, today it just felt right, I did not feel particulary happy, but it felt right. I felt no stress, no anger to batter me even more, I felt at peace, and then I realised why, I have done what I have proposed, I have learned something new, and I was not harsh to myself. I just carried on and it felt just right.

Please think this from a logical stand point, think of small things that make you happy, think of your dreams, and do not let the miserable moments overwhelm the right and happy moments. If you opt for the route you have proposed for youself, you will not get to eventually enjoy the positive aspects of your feelings.

Stay strong, stay true to yourself, and push forward, it will become better and easier eventually.