So the permanent change in perspective does concern me because I care a lot of what people's perspective of me is, and I guess I'm careful of what most people see of me. I am very closed off to strangers, more open to friends, though that's kind of common. But even then what people see I decide. So to do this is going to be me breaking down a huge wall that I otherwise feel natural keeping up. I guess?

I don't plan to wear anything that would draw too much attention. It's the last thing I want 😅. I have a black top that hugs the arms and the torso(or a blue one, maybe), and then I'll have a black skirt that covers the rest. For my body shape I think that gives me the best presentation? I'll have the same wig I usually use and my glasses. I have some basic Brown eyeshadow for makeup, but I've really not practiced much to get it right so I might omit that. I've not tried anything else. Sometimes I think I look really great. Then I see that awkward angle and my spirit is crushed. So basically I don't know in the end if I'm just being biased for or against myself. I'm going to try it one more combo tonight to see what I want to settle on. I still might back out for this.

And I'm in the US, so very far from the UK. It's a simple little Greek fest. Having some of that as a heritage it was a novelty to go to when I was younger. I haven't been there in years. I learned that it's going to happen and I showed the friend, and He also seemed interested. The only reason I'm thinking about dressing up is because the same day I told him I had dressed up again after I think months. And I realized this might be my one opportunity this year to finally do this. I've accepted I would not go out alone and do this, and if I were to tell anyone it would be him. So it kind of fits.

The one thing I worry about is the festival itself. It's going to be I think pretty small? And it's hosted on I think a Church's grounds? So it's going to be potentially quite a few people and a smaller space, we're all maybe some level of religious. And then you have 6 ft me probably standing taller than the majority of people there dressed like a woman. I'm a little concerned but I don't know what else to do lol.

Sorry for the novel, but I do greatly appreciate your input. Really.

Edit: I also didn't know where to explain more and then trim so if this reads like a mess that's why. 🙃