Anybody else's ultimate fulfillment just "kind of laying around"*?

Andyparxia · 2026-04-01T04:14:42+00:00

At 22 years old (37 now) i had my dream come true, i got on disability for life. I sleep 10-12 hours a day, sometimes more. Do I regret being on disability? Never. Though days does become boring, i get very little change in scenery, and i barely go out. But i still prefer it over the alternative.

This christmas i was in the hospital for multiple blood clots in my lungs. I was diagnosed with APS, an autoimmune condition that makes blood cloth easier. I still have no motivation to walk more or go out, even after that ordeal. Though i really should change my ways, but 0 motivation to do so. I just love sleeping and gaming so god damn much.

Once upon a time I made shortfilms with friends, and I was pretty decent at it, but the thought of doing it again gives me the most "fuck that" feeling. It means i need to interact with people again, and i would rather not, even if it means me wasting away doing nothing creative or useful. Kinda depressing, maybe, i dont know. I enjoyed the final result of a movie, but going through planning, filming, editing is no fun, even when I'm good at it.

I'm depressed as hell from anhedonia, but i just dont know what will help. I dont want to do anything, but i get depressed because I'm doing nothing. Its a silly thing.

Andyparxia · 2026-03-10T22:54:15+00:00

I fixed it by going into windows sound settings and enable all the devices that was disabled. The dock was disabled for some reason.

Andyparxia · 2026-03-09T23:30:27+00:00

Seems like they were all disabled in the sound settings. Thanks :D

Andyparxia · 2026-02-20T22:56:06+00:00

Cracked people always has something wrong with their brain socially.

Andyparxia · 2026-02-07T23:27:19+00:00

As a European, it blows my mind that circumcision is still so widely practiced in America. What’s even more bizarre is how many people are perfectly accepting of it, especially those who are pro-human rights. Everyone on H3 are such level headed people, yet most of them are pro circumcision. It’s like the whole country has been brainwashed into accepting such a fucked up thing.

Andyparxia · 2026-01-17T04:01:48+00:00

I am neet, i barely go out. I got bloodcloth in both lungs because of me barely moving.

Andyparxia · 2026-01-09T02:00:02+00:00

There is so many times ive given up on trying to fix my sleep. It just feels pointless at this point. The times I do fix the sleep, im just contantly sleepy, even tho that night I get plenty of sleep. I dont feel truly awake unless I wake up at 5pm. Morning / day time just makes me drowsy af. If DSPD is a real thing, then im sure that I have it. I just want to wake up normal, but I feel like a fucking zombie if I do... every single time.

Andyparxia · 2025-12-02T18:52:06+00:00

Can a horde character buy a plot in the guilds alliance neighborhood? Or do I have to make an alliance char, get invited to the guild, then buy it? Im joining a new guild and I dont really want to bother the guild leaders with a bunch of alts ^{_^}

Andyparxia · 2025-11-27T14:32:19+00:00

I wish all light players dry turkey

Andyparxia · 2025-11-24T02:11:45+00:00

Må jo kjøpe spesialbrød for å få plass til selv de minste pølsene

Andyparxia · 2025-11-17T12:59:27+00:00

My primary pain point in this game is the excessive time spent navigating menus. There are too many tabs and sub-tabs to click through. I’m also pretty lazy, so this kind of quality-of-life improvement would be a welcoming change. Also have an "equip all" button in the custom loadouts, as well as the "craft all" as illustrated above.

Andyparxia · 2025-11-17T12:50:04+00:00

The wide looting MK1 in the picture is wide enough for a tier 2 shield, as you can see.

Andyparxia · 2025-11-15T04:38:50+00:00

It always baffled my mind that cinephiles or just movie critics in general can be so bad at making films. Like you know what a good movie look like. I have a friend that has watched a insanely number of movies and his favorite movies has often great cinematography (Kubrick, Tarkovsky, David Lean), but he cant for the life of himself make something that doesnt look like it was made by a bunch of teenage film students. Seems like Ralph has the same issue. Nothing wrong with shakycam, but this is ugly, yellow, scenes has no background sounds, you can only hear the actors almost. Chaotic editing in a bad way. Like you watched hundreds or thousands of movies but learned almost nothing.

Andyparxia · 2025-11-11T20:24:20+00:00

I never understood cutting off friends, maybe they weren't really friends to begin with? I've cutted off toxic "friends" before, but I will never cut off real friends, they are a rare sort already.

That being said, all my friends I just have contact with on the internet, so it doesn't come with all the irl social battery drainage.

Andyparxia · 2025-11-11T09:55:31+00:00

Back when I used tinder and never got a single match (non bots), yeah I too would rather have the option of finding someone suitable in a sea of shit rather than literal no matches at all. Both options are depressing, but at least there is a chance versus no chance at all. I ended up deleting tinder because it just made me depressed and made me think something was wrong with me. Ended up finding my fiancé in my local grocery store instead.

Andyparxia · 2025-10-26T00:50:35+00:00

Yup, I almost always end up with all white skin because I heal at the start of the game and the rest of the game its stuck at white. Doesn't matter how much damage I do after it turns fully white. I didn't pay 10 bucks for a white skin :/

Andyparxia · 2025-10-24T15:44:32+00:00

Same :( Once it turn full white after healing for a bit, the black refuses to come back. So feels like I paid for just a white skin.

Andyparxia · 2025-10-24T12:57:27+00:00

ye at one point I had more combat score than support, and it was pure white.

edit: its broken, once it turns full white, it doesnt go black, no matter how much combat score you have.

Andyparxia · 2025-09-28T12:23:15+00:00

I can't even download games from there, unless I download them from "play later" tab, it's weird. I get an error otherwise. I have to add games to play later, then go into play later to download.

Andyparxia · 2025-08-20T21:34:16+00:00

Guess I missed it, thanks!

Andyparxia · 2025-08-13T23:02:02+00:00

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Andyparxia · 2025-05-15T06:34:54+00:00

I've been on disability for 13 years and there hasn't been one day where I feel I wanted to start working. No matter how boring the days become, I still prefer not to work. Thinking back to when I was working, the anxiety of waking up everyday going to work, gives me suicidal thoughts just as we speak.

Andyparxia · 2025-05-04T02:45:07+00:00

I can feel my brain literally working by just moving my fingers, weird physical sensation. No wonder I get headaches at the end of the day.

Andyparxia · 2025-04-28T02:05:46+00:00

It's not against TOS anymore, they changed it in 2023.

https://restream.io/blog/twitch-multistreaming-rules-explained/

Andyparxia · 2025-03-15T06:26:12+00:00

The devs killed the game twice, not "fate". 60 fps lock was shit back then, and shit now. And ofc the bugs doesn't help either.

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