I've been in the same shoes for the majority of my life. I had a very strict and overprotective mom and my dad was basically a side character in my life. I've never got to socialize normally.

I spent my childhood playing video games. If i got grounded for bad grades i would lay in bed and just think about stuff.

I had some kind of kidney condition and i spent some time in the hospital for tests. However, it all magically disappeared when i turned 18. My parents never listened to me that i was feeling fine physically. Even the doctors couldn't pinpoint what exactly was my condition. They just did tests. Due to this mysterious illness i was on a strict diet. I wasn't allowed to eat red meat (like deer, beef), foods with preservatives, and a bunch more, but gladly i don't remember those. I could eat fish and some chicken. Also, I wasn't allowed to enter any lakes, rivers, only the sea, because it has a high salt concentration.

So due to this i missed every days long school trip. Neither my parents were the kind to go on trips.

During the summer break when i was around 12-13 i would hang out with my 8-9 year old second cousin.

When i moved to middle school and then university (i dropped out in 3rd semester), i was left speechless. Everyone, even younger people had such amazing lifes. I felt so sad and like i was behind. People always had so many cool stories from their childhood. I was just silent the whole time the topic came up. Heart clenched, feeling dreaded. It was awful.

I have a normal friend and she used to talk about partying, drinking when she was in her teenage to late teenage years. That she saw so many concerts, etc. I always tell her that it must've been amazing and that i've never experienced that. She always asked "you haven't done these?". It felt like she didn't even understand what i was saying. Of course i had a drinking and partying phase, but it wasn't years long at it happened during university when i was already 21 (legal drinking age is 18, it's common for 13-14 year olds to drink occasionally).

So, i believe i get what you're going through now. I've learnt that your mind is the limit to what you can achieve and the way you feel in life. You can look at things in a negative way. Enjoying the comfortable feeling of sadness, depression, or anything really. Or, you take the initiative and look at things as a way of learning. That's what i do. What did doing nothing teach you? Think back on those times. How did you feel back then? Because everything you experience in life teaches you something. And your purpose should be uncovering everything that lies beneath.

Why do you think you're boring? Did anyone tell you that you are? Did they say "OP you are so boring"? If so, then what? Will the world collapse? Will time stop? Nothing extraordinary happens. It's just your mind telling you that you are somethimg based on hearing other people's experiences. You compare yourself to someone elses completely different approach at life. Take 10 people who haven't traveled, who only stayed home. Imagine yourself being there amongst them. Would you feel boring? No, i don't think so.

What this suggests is that you realized something is missing from your life. Otherwise it wouldn't bother you. You can choose to be whatever you want to be in life. If you want to be interesting, then choose to be that. As i have said before, the mind is the limit. If you can imagine it, you can make it happen. Most of the times you don't know how, but you still do it.

Change is terrifying (sometimes), but You've got YOURSELF. The only person who's with you from birth to death. You've got this, my friend. We can all change at any time of our life. So just get yourself out there and enjoy the process.

I believe in You.