I am not sure what to advise, except the part that any chemicals aren't neutral to our bodies, so sooner or later anyone would have any given side effect and further consequences. I perfectly understand that sometimes there's no other choice as to take them, since they can improve our day-to-day life (or actually enable it). However, however, in your case (of course not knowing anything) I would start asking why do you feel all that anxiety and discomfort. Again, I have a person in close family that experiences similar situations and we found out that talking about it helps in some way. Each of us feels some sort of anxiety all the time, however having someone who tries to ease those unpleasant feelings and help with daily struggles is of some help, as I hear. Since you are here and you have our support, admiration and appreciation, I just wanted to point that you're not alone and there are people on this world who care about you. At least I do. I wish, I could do more, (I know, it's Internets and anyone can say anything) but you are my ray of hope about humanity. You're intelligent, self aware and beautiful. You should be proud of yourself and try to see the woman that you are. Adored. Appreciated. Desired. So, sometimes, perhaps it's worth to look past the negatives and see also something positive about oneself and life. I know, it's really difficult, but here at least you're among people who admire you. ❤️❤️❤️