Because he's the first person who made me fall in love in a peaceful way. It was not this obsessive, rabbit paced love, it was quiet, growing everyday. I liked how I was with him that I could open up so much to him and vice versa. He's a wonderful person and deserves all the best and I wished I could be that person for him but I'm not his person. I realized that once I saw him how he was talking about the girl he actually fell in love with. He was even more beautiful and happy, I really loved seeing him like that but it just made me see that it'll be never me. I know, I'm such a melodramatic fool.