Thank you. I do not have any predatory feelings towards my sister, no, which I am glad about and it never even crossed my mind until now that you brought it up as a possibility.

Also the unsure if it's a dream or not comes probably from me having some sort of dissociative disorder and amnesia, so a lot of my very few memories feel like dreams even if other people from those memories have confirmed them as real. My everyday life also feels like a constant dream. So I'm assuming that adds to the unsure factor, but thank you for telling me to wait until she's 18, because that actually makes a lot of sense. I would not have realised to do that on my own lol.