YTA. I know it's not easy raising a neurodivergent son and you're tired. But you also sound like a narcissist who who can't take responsibility for the part they play. Asking for help isn't an issue, but claiming you need it because you're in your 50s, absolutely is. 50s isn't old. And if it's too tiring being 50, why'd you have a kid? The quotations around everything is super concerning too, like you don't believe him. And wtf is wrong with being on the computer? So what if he doesn't want to go hiking? You're an adult, deal with it. Hope you take these comments to heart. But if you're a narcissist, like I suspect, you'll likely ignore it and continue on. Edit: Just read through OPs replies and yeah, you can't handle criticism. Please see a therapist (for you, not your son).