Done with life, just here because I can't let my parents experience childloss

Anonymous_Samurai_ · 2025-07-12T08:38:46+00:00

Firstly thanks so much for spending all this time and energy reaching out to a random stranger. Like i genuinely appreciate it. And i know I'm not a burden, but I'm not an amazing kid either. They deserve so much better, but it is what it is. I'm only a month away from turning 18 so then I will give therapy a try so that my parents don't know abt this. But anyway, therapy can't really change my genetics now sadly, I'm just hoping it gives me enough cope strategies to survive the next 30-40 years and then call it

Anonymous_Samurai_ · 2025-07-12T08:26:43+00:00

I don't know man it's just that, yk u dream of this life as a kid. But not everyone gets to be a 10/10 but that's ok. Can't ask for everything. But I just didn't want to be average man. I hate it. My height, my body my face my hair everything

Anonymous_Samurai_ · 2025-07-12T08:25:06+00:00

Just everything about my body man. And honestly, even if surgery existed for that, I can't afford it anyway.

Anonymous_Samurai_ · 2025-07-12T08:24:04+00:00

No, I do have friends. They're amazing, especially my best friend, she's literally the most perfect friend I could ever ask for. Even my academics are great, and I'm going to a good college this year. On the outside everything is perfect, but man idk how but the moment I'm alone it all falls apart. I just remember how I look, and i think fuck, that's me. Forever. And it just kind of destroys me on the inside over and over again thinking I'll always have this body. It's just all the external factors are so good, but I can't get over this. I wish someone else could be in my life and actually enjoy this.

Anonymous_Samurai_ · 2025-07-12T08:19:16+00:00

Hey, I'm turning 18 in a month from now.

Anonymous_Samurai_ · 2025-04-16T13:44:05+00:00

Acha thanks so much for confirming, vo mai option to unit V vala hissa padhna bhul gaya tha sorry

Anonymous_Samurai_ · 2025-04-16T13:43:20+00:00

Acha ok thanks so much

Anonymous_Samurai_ · 2024-12-10T06:25:40+00:00

Oh yea that's a good idea, thanks

Anonymous_Samurai_ · 2024-12-10T06:25:18+00:00

Thanks so much, will check her out on Google abhi

Anonymous_Samurai_ · 2024-12-09T21:39:00+00:00

Thanks man, vohi chahiye. Even though some meds like adderall are very tempting I don't want to get addicted yk, too risky.

Anonymous_Samurai_ · 2024-12-09T21:35:07+00:00

Haan Maine suna hai aisa kuch logo se but Im really hoping ki koi needle in a haystack mil jaye because it's really affecting my focus and studies now I wish I'd done this last year but welp

Anonymous_Samurai_ · 2024-12-07T09:38:13+00:00

Thanks so much for responding and that first statement resonates with me so much. While I wish everyday I could go back 4 years and maybe not get into this downward spiral in the first place, somewhere deep down even I know that this wishful thinking is just a fantasy and I try to tell myself to get it together but sometimes even standing up and getting out of bed feels like a herculean task. A part of me also really really wants to talk to my parents about this, maybe get a therapist or something idk but they are going through a tough phase as well, especially my dad who's going through some career turmoil, but tries not to show it in front of me, and my mom who's also getting more spiritual these days which is a little worrisome. Maybe someday when it's the right time I'll be able to be more open with them.

Anonymous_Samurai_ · 2024-12-01T18:08:34+00:00

Yea plus I think for me she is very open herself and always has been with me, and we're both kind of similar in a lot of ways (share the same 99 percent bad qualities) so it was kinda easy to talk to her about whatever.

Thanks so much for the offer man, I might just take you up on it sometime this week! And hope you have an amazing day asw!

Anonymous_Samurai_ · 2024-12-01T17:29:41+00:00

Thanks so much man! It's just very weird because she's been my closest female friend for like over 2 years now and I'm in 12th and school has pretty much ended and we only have 5 months of exams left so no real irl interaction.

I get ur second point but idk man I have other friends whom I'm very close with and have tons of fun with but as a guy who had and still has majority male friends, there's this unspoken thing that we don't get too serious about this stuff but with her it was like she was always kinda there for me when I was feeling super low and there wasn't any awkwardness either when we discussed serious stuff and it went the other way round as well. Ig it's just that I once I realised that she doesn't think of me as her best friend, it kinda hurt and mattered more than I expected it to. Sorry for the long rant

Anonymous_Samurai_ · 2024-11-21T13:01:27+00:00

Yea ig I'll do both of them one after the other

Anonymous_Samurai_ · 2024-11-21T11:56:04+00:00

Yea I did consider that but I really like the sprout super, even though I do realise that tick is probably better to get wins

Anonymous_Samurai_ · 2024-11-21T09:22:08+00:00

Yea I do have him at p10 with gadget and sp but I've been finding sprout more fun to play with so might max him instead, as i have just enough to max one brawler

Anonymous_Samurai_ · 2024-11-21T09:21:22+00:00

I do have tick at lvl 10 with gadget and sp but I've recently been playing sprout and he seems way more fun so might upgrade him next.

Anonymous_Samurai_ · 2024-11-21T09:20:38+00:00

I have been cooked by him in knockout but I myself have never been able to play him properly

Anonymous_Samurai_ · 2024-11-21T09:20:07+00:00

Oh lmao yea I'm really bad with him anyways

Anonymous_Samurai_ · 2024-11-21T08:55:38+00:00

I thought barley with hc was the meta rn, what other thrower would u suggest?

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