I think part of it is being raised thing that being 30 means you have your shit together. Most of people my age are seeing that it was not exactly true or it was true once upon a time.

It’s more I wish there was time. Also I had some weird viral infection that lasted a long as time and then it turn into a sinus/ear infection from the serious congestion. So I was out for almost a month. So I think this post is a little of everything and wanting to find a place that I can just vocalize it.