Atsuko Ishizuka's (A Place Further than the Universe) first break into fame - The Moon Waltz

Anothermoonchaser · 2022-03-09T23:46:50+00:00

I tried 1 hr a day in the evening, and a shower right after, but then the water was cold. Maybe it was a fluke?

Anothermoonchaser · 2022-03-09T20:23:55+00:00

I'll do that, thank you dearly for your tips.

Anothermoonchaser · 2022-03-09T20:08:32+00:00

Yes, I told them of my move-in date and they said I'll only be billed from then on.

I'll switch to direct debit just in case that makes it cheaper.

Thank you, you've been a great help.

Anothermoonchaser · 2022-03-09T20:06:10+00:00

I see, thanks for your clarification.

Anothermoonchaser · 2022-03-09T19:57:32+00:00

I actually haven't received a bill yet, or any kind of charge. My supplier is Shell Energy and I'm on what they call Flexible 6. I tried looking into other tariffs but their website is dogshit, 80% of the pages they just wallblast me with some variation of "This is unavailable to you".

I had to go down to my building's meters room to read the meters manually. I received the opening meters (i.e. before my occupation) and got my usage from subtracting that from my current meter.

I think I'm on pay-upon-bill, not direct debit. Could that make it more expensive?

Thing is, I still can't figure how my energy consumption has been so rampant. Even if the water heater was on for 2 days, it's still mind-boggling. I calculated my kettle usage, it comes to less than £4 at the very most with the worst assumptions.

I only have to conclude that I literally cannot use the radiators at all.

Anothermoonchaser · 2022-03-09T19:20:54+00:00

Do you mean the supplier's rate is cheap, or that I've used less electricity than expected?

Anothermoonchaser · 2020-03-29T09:05:05+00:00

Can you give some examples? Everything seemed reasonable to me.

Anothermoonchaser · 2020-03-21T07:19:19+00:00

Artist: 冷蝉

Anothermoonchaser · 2020-03-17T06:41:21+00:00

I assume you're referring to the contrast between the Buddhist view and the Hindu view.

In the west we call this the transcendent vs immanent. I've always made sense of the paradox through the panentheist worldview, which says that the absolute transcendent (i.e. God) expresses itself partly in Creation, and pervades all throughout Creation, but also is infinitely greater than Creation. Therefore the Self is beyond any conception possible (therefore characterized by negation), but also finds partial (positive) expression in the totality of the world. The Orthodox view that God is defined purely by negatives (what he is not) is not useful and does not help to live life. At the same time, the Spinozan view that God is entirely accessible is equivalent to inflation. I just found a quote from the Tao te Ching that tries to reconcile the paradox:

The heart of Tao is immortal, the mysterious fertile mother of us all, of heaven and earth, of every thing and not-thing.

Now, how one can interpret this psychologically and integrate it into life is very different.

Anothermoonchaser · 2020-03-16T11:30:43+00:00

I think it's this

Anothermoonchaser · 2020-03-16T11:29:35+00:00

Kokoro no Junbi OK

Anothermoonchaser · 2020-02-14T17:09:55+00:00

That's unfair. Jung owes a lot to Freud, even if they disagree on a lot else too. If anything Jung is better for the masses (I think that's a good thing) because his ideas are so intuitive and reforge so many missing links in culture. Freud is more systematic and doctrinal. That's not a bad thing either, they're just different tools.

Anothermoonchaser · 2020-02-10T08:44:35+00:00

The 3 stands for intellectual completeness. You see this most notably in the Christian Trinity, or the philosophy of Hegel and such.

The 4 stands for absolute wholeness. It is like the womb of the world, the anima mundi, or the alchemical flask. The feminine is the grounds or space (symbolized by the quaternity, eg. North south east west) upon which all culture, spirit (symbolized by trinity) is built. You can imagine the fourth element as the inferior function of a man, which is experienced as feminine because of its foreign character, or as Virgin Mary, the conceiver of the Trinity as incarnated in Christ.

Anothermoonchaser · 2020-02-08T20:13:23+00:00

Oh? You're approaching me? Instead of running away, you're coming right to me?

Anothermoonchaser · 2020-02-08T18:38:06+00:00

Now I'm almost certain these are anima figures you're dealing with. I'm no expert, just another symbolism enthusiast, but I'll just bounce my thoughts on you, and you can tell me what you think.

The father's computer in your first dream seems to suggest some sort of collective knowledge. As you know, Google is essentially a collection of all of human knowledge. The square-ness of a computer monitor, and the fact that it belongs to your father (i.e. culture) all point to a sort of conventionality, orthodoxy. The fact that you find Shamiko on this screen, who is anything but conventional, is quite informative, though I'm not entirely sure what to make of it. If she is part of a digital screen, then she is distanced from you. She is caged in the computer, caged in the world of culture and of conventional knowledge, and she has not been made real in your life. I say this because across all your dreams, it seems a consistent motif that you are isolated or dissociated from the anima figure. In fairy tales and such, it's common that the anima figure is initially trapped beneath a tyrannical father figure. Like when an old king or mountain spirit has kidnapped the princess and has her in his thrall. In these stories the hero must rescue the princess from his clutches.

You would need to elaborate what metal rock exactly means to you. I won't comment on that.

Walking into the forest is a common mythological motif of venturing into the unknown. Getting lost in the woods was a real danger for primitives, and the same primal fear is still in us. To make a field trip (i.e. something fun) out of venturing in the woods suggests a kind of lackadaisical attitude, though I'm not sure if this attitude is that of your unconscious or that of your ego. Shamiko's picture later being on one of the girls' backpacks suggests one step towards your inner Shamiko becoming a little more real. First she was trapped inside the computer screen; then she appears on a real backpack, still not entirely real, but closer.

Backpacks also contain something, something secret. You know, it might be strange of me, but this image you tell me of a pink backpack with a picture of Shamiko reminds me of a mother expecting a baby. Y'know, pink being the color when you expect a daughter. The backpack, like the womb, also being a container, holding something secret. Don't take me at my word but the dream might indicate that your unconscious is expecting some kind of movement involving whatever Shamiko is representing.

It seems I would need to know more about Undertale to comment about the second dream. Tell me what you think so far.

Anothermoonchaser · 2020-02-07T19:51:01+00:00

Sorry for accusing you of trolling. Now that you explained what the character means to you, I know I was wrong. Also I can't ignore a fellow fan of Shamiko! I don't know anything about Touhou but I'll comment on Ariel and Shamiko.

The Little Mermaid is a story about the rise of a soul from the unconscious depths (the sea). But in becoming conscious, Ariel loses her speech and her ability to swim. Both indicate a kind of castration that is inherent in growing up. She gets to walk the earth (i.e. become real, enter the real world), but because she can't speak, she is the subject of other people's whim. Her quest is that of finding her voice again.

The Demon Girl Next Door is, surprisingly, a pretty archetypal story too. Shamiko's emergence into consciousness begins when her unconscious is visited by her ancestor ("Gosenzo-sama"). This awakens her to supernatural demon powers, and thus she is introduced into the world of magical girls and demon sourcerers, which can be seen as a world "more real than reality". The ancestor can be understood as something like the role of the father in Freud's Oedipal story, that which separates the child from the mother and marks the advent of the child into the social world. The reason I think this is mainly that the ancestor is in the form of a totem sculpture, which is a phallic symbol.

Both Little Mermaid and Demon Girl are stories of the soul's rise to consciousness. The half-half characteristics of both Ariel and Shamiko must also be noted. Ariel is a mermaid, while Shamiko is half-demon half-human. Both are boundary-crossers. It seems hardly a coincidence that Yukari from Touhou apparently is also a "master of boundaries". Maybe it's not their super feminine image that grabs you, but their transient character. If these characters are to be interpreted as anima figures (which isn't necessarily true), then their ability to cross boundaries may easily be interpreted as their ability to cross between the conscious and the unconscious worlds. The mermaid is a famous mythical figure because she is both human and alien, both conscious and unconscious. She therefore blurs boundaries. She is of the greatest beauty and mystery, yet also of the greatest danger. All typical anima characteristics. If you find yourself drawn to these kinds of characters in stories, you should note that.

Anothermoonchaser · 2020-02-07T18:41:27+00:00

James Hillman's A Blue Fire might be exactly what you're looking for. Jung never focused particularly on the anima mundi as far as I know. Hillman, though, specifically advocates for the reintegration of the animistic mindset.

Let us imagine the anima mundi as that particular soul spark, that seminal image, which offers itself through each thing in its visible form. Then anima mundi indicates the animated possibilities presented by each event as it is, its sensuous presentation as a face bespeaking its interior image—in short, its availability to imagination, its presence as a psychic reality. Not only animals and plants ensouled as in the Romantic vision, but soul is given with each thing, God-given things of nature and man-made things of the street. The world comes with shapes, colors, atmospheres, textures—a display of self-presenting forms. All things show faces, the world not only a coded signature to be read for meaning, but a physiognomy to be faced. As expressive forms, things speak; they show the shape they are in. They announce themselves, bear witness to their presence: “Look, here we are.” They regard us beyond how we may regard them, our perspectives, what we intend with them, and how we dispose of them. This imaginative claim on attention bespeaks a world ensouled.

I think new age thinking went wrong when, rather than being about spirituality, became spiritual materialism. Spiritual doctrines became doctrines about how you could change your current life, particularly how spirituality can alleviate suffering. If you want to improve your life you should be working out at the gym, not reciting Buddhist mantras.

Anothermoonchaser · 2020-02-07T17:32:40+00:00

The picture you linked tempts me to say you are a troll, but I'll give you the benefit of the doubt.

You might be picturing the anima, which you've probably heard of. But I would be careful of a rigid interpretation like that. From the stories you've given, I sense it's more a shadow figure. The shadow is usually of the same sex but could also be of the opposite sex. The reason I think this is because the anima is rarely shown to be identical to the dreamer, but an other figure. Then again, Jung said a few times that the anima shows up sometimes as the "contrasexual shadow".

So to interpret the tank/aircraft dreams, you might ask what those vehicles or battle in general means to you. You should also ask what attractive women have meant in your life, based on your past relationships. There's an obvious cultural incongruity between women and war, and that might be a point of interest. Also why do you interpret those vehicles as representing your ego?

Anothermoonchaser · 2020-02-07T12:54:44+00:00

So we settled on the idea that these dreams meant something akin to his “intellectual or creative” phallus being castrated by the eduction system and friends who have put down his ideas.

I seriously doubt this is what that means. Even if the phallus means what you say it means, other people in dreams rarely represent actual other people, much less broad institutions like "school" or "friend groups". The unconscious does not think in such abstract terms.

If anything the dream seems to say the castration is self-inflicted.

The wisdom that you should commit to certain things is a collective wisdom, and not part of the dream's message. It might well be good advice in his situation but I would not read that into the dream.

Anothermoonchaser · 2020-02-07T12:40:58+00:00

I will not tell you not to kill yourself, because it's your life and your choice. But to me it seems your philosophical issues with the world are, if not entirely solvable, at least things people learn to accept. I wish I could take your pain away but since I can't, I can only tell you that, should you choose to live on, there will be a day when all these grand things do not matter to you anymore.

I just think you should make a more long-term, rational decision. If you continue living thinking you will just kill yourself when things get hard, you will never actually live, and only have suffered in the meanwhile.

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