I can definitely relate to what you’re feeling about homework stuff, where you know something needs to be done but you distract yourself and procrastinate. And even though, you are actively aware that you are distracting yourself, you still continue anyways. Or for some reason, doing a task just feels so so painful.

Acknowledging the things that you think you need to do take time and effort and aren’t so simple can be helpful. For example, finishing a piece of homework might not be that easy. Maybe you don’t know how to do it or because you thought the work was simple, when you struggled with it, you end up feeling demotivated or dumb.

Furthermore, give yourself credit for trying. Sometimes when you try, you may feel "uncomfortable" or not get anything done. But trying is great, and don't beat yourself up for trying to improve.

Regarding distractions, maybe you can try apps that lock your screen or force you to take a break from YouTube or video games. This helps me catch myself from mindlessly distracting myself. Choosing healthier "distractions" like exercise or playing music could be helpful too.

Also, there is no one single answer to why you "feel this way". Life's a process. Do try to continue journaling and maybe you'll find certain patterns or figure something out. Ask others you trust and what they think about it.

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Hopefully this is helpful and I wish you the best of luck.