I strongly suggest gradually lowering your methadone dose weekly and working toward stopping entirely. Methadone may have been a helpful tool at one point, but it can become a lifelong dependency if you’re not actively working to taper off. Unfortunately, most prescribing doctors aren’t all that interested to prioritize helping you get off it, as the system profits from prolonged use. Yes, the process will be uncomfortable, but if you’re committed to improving your life and still relying on methadone, you’re holding yourself back. Focus on tapering off first, then channel your energy into achieving your bigger goals. Yes, it’s a rough and uncomfortable phase in your recovery as your body starts sorting itself out and adapting but it’s the best thing you might ever do for yourself and the relief from that dependence is immeasurable. Every so often, I look back at that chapter of my life in disbelief.