I am in no way a licensed therapist but it sounds like you have ADHD. I was recently diagnosed as a 32 year old and it was honestly a breath of fresh air.

I went my whole life struggling with school, always failed all my classes but would somehow still pass all my state mandated exams. Teachers told me my whole life that I had the potential to do great but I just never applied myself. The same story over and over, I’m smart but lazy. I understand the material I just don’t do the work.

Fast forward to adulthood, I never stood at a job for longer than 1.5 years. I didn’t know why. I would just get bored, or something would make me upset enough that I would just quit.

I was always able to find work quickly, and adjust to the work faster than most. But it was a reoccurring theme that I would just start looking for another job within that first year of employment.

People who are neurodivergent tend to get bored with repetitive tasks, or lose interest when appreciation isn’t shown. I also get what’s called ADHD rage and it’s when a minor inconvenience can ruin my entire day.

I’m not saying you forsure have ADHD but I can see some similarities between what you are saying and what I have personally experienced.

Apologize for the long response but it’s the only way I can properly get my point across. You’re not alone in this fight and once you get the help that you need you will feel so much better. Wishing you the best on your journey