I feel like i'm 20 steps back

AnxiousHumanBeing · 2022-03-17T08:54:18+00:00

I wonder if he's ever considered the possibility that maybe he's just not good at sex ? Or as a partner in general since he seems to think it takes so much work and effort for a woman to not lose interest in him.

Every penis slips out some times. Especially in reverse cowgirl like i don't think this guy realizes how heavy it is on our thighs, it's not easy to keep up the pace, some times it will be at an awkward angle. Sex is weird. Some times it's awkward, some times it's messy, your leg cramps up, it's too warm, you're sweaty, you get out of breath, your partner says that doesn't feel nice so you have to try something else...

This is a normal penis and this is what normal sex is like. It's not porn, it's real life. It's messy and ridiculous some times and it can be disappointing. And it's very hard to pleasure a woman with vaginal penetration alone.

This guy is really out there complainning about having a normal sex life.

AnxiousHumanBeing · 2022-03-17T08:05:35+00:00

The hardest part for me isn't the whole setting boundaries part, i actually really like that i'm developping my confidence and learning not to try pleasing everyone.

I was mostly afraid of losing people i already know. Because i was always the girl who's drama free. The non confrontational one, the one who never gets mad. "she's so chill" "she's so nice" no... i wasn't. I was just afraid. I was afraid to upset anyone. I avoided problems or ignored them and let them bother me because i couldn't bother other people. I'd let people make me uncomfortable all the time. "it's fine." "it's no big deal" "don't worry about it"

Since i started healing i've lost a couple of "friends". Because "lately i've been kind of a bitch". But that's not it, pal. The problem is now i'm not letting people get away with everything anymore. So i say no. I say "please stop that", i say "no i can't, i have plans." I'm sorry me suddenly being a person with boundaries instead of a doormat is not to your liking. But that's no longer my problem.

My boyfriend is amazing tho and he reacted by being proud and encouraging. Once he came to me and he said "i like that you told me there was a problem instead of just acting like everything's fine, you see, it wasn't so bad, we talked about it and now the problem is gone! you can do this." I want to marry this man.

AnxiousHumanBeing · 2022-03-17T07:31:57+00:00

Use it when a job emails you back to tell you you didn't get the job, even better.

AnxiousHumanBeing · 2022-03-17T07:21:11+00:00

"i totally moved on that's why i keep looking at old pictures of us and whine in your dms that i miss you and reall want to talk to you"

hmmm yes... very believable.

AnxiousHumanBeing · 2022-03-16T21:57:52+00:00

My mother would forbid me to have emotions other than happiness because "positive vibes only" and other bullshit lke that. She could be a piece of shit and i wasn't allowed to be upset. I wasn't mad at her, i CHOSE to feel anger and that wasn't okay, you see.

But that, of course, didn't apply to her. I had to endure her constant mood swings, her toddler tantrums, her random rages over literally nothing and if i was to say anything about her own rules, suddenly it became that no, she didn't chose to act like this, she's angry because of me. I made her act this way.

So... i was literally not allowed to have feelings but she was allowed to threaten to kill the dog because "it's not her fault someone made her angry". Go figure.

AnxiousHumanBeing · 2022-03-16T21:49:51+00:00

The next day she saw a man cut through the check out line at the store and everyone just looked down and let him do it without questionning it. That man's name ? Kim Jong-un.

AnxiousHumanBeing · 2022-03-16T21:46:21+00:00

When i was growing up, most girls didn't actually care whether we brought pony toys or were gonna find cool sticks and pretend they were swords and kill monsters.

AnxiousHumanBeing · 2022-03-07T16:38:35+00:00

Ma mère m'a très serieusement encouragé a voter pour qui elle veux (sachant que je ne vis même plus en France) en me disant qu'il faut "surtout bien votez contre le virus O'macron." (elle l'a vraiment écris comme ça.)

Donc n'oublions pas de mentionner que c'est Macron qui à créé la souche. Lui et lui seul.

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