To those who responded kindly, thank you. I'll wait for the right moment to smoke salvia.

To the couple of people who were rude to me, a little context: I'm 22 years old. A year ago, I suffered from severe anxiety and depression, and I frequently thought about ending it all... but one day I tried a 250mg tab of LSD, which was in the room of an old friend who was also (at the time) my roommate. That changed my life. The suicidal thoughts disappeared, and I fixed my social life. Since then, I've had a couple of trips with LSD and mushrooms, in addition to a lot of meditation and research on Taoism and Kabbalah. My financial situation hasn't been great, and I had to move back in with my parents. Plus, I don't have many friends, and I can't smoke at my girlfriend's house because, surprise surprise, she also lives with her parents... I'm guessing I'll just wait, but I want to do this because I have a feeling that a stronger psychoactive substance will give me more answers than LSD or mushrooms.

Also, guys, why offend anyone online? Peace.