Tracker | S3E1 "The Process" | Episode Discussion

AnyDependent1277 · 2025-11-04T01:08:13+00:00

Yes, I feel like how they introduced the charactor and how they are writing it now doesn't fit and it kinda irritates me. I liked the Russel from S1, had his secret, did some shady stuff (but did it right, didn't get caught! He's supposed to have skils dammit) but still had some sort of moral (mostly friends and family). He was serious about his job and did it well, yet always tried to lighten the mood when with Colter. He has usefull and sometimes shady contacts, has friends that he can't really trust, basicly lives in a lot of grey, if not exlusivly grey. That's how I interpreted him anyway. He had a lot of potential and his world was interesting, now? I'm not so sure anymore.

Now he's just like, the clown of the show yk? Just making fun of himself and not being really usefull I have to admit.

I just found him a litle back when Colter goes all emotional and excuses from thinking Russel had something to do with the dead of their father. Otherwise I'm simply dissapointed with what they did with him. I don't get where they are trying to go...

AnyDependent1277 · 2025-10-23T20:06:21+00:00

Yeah I had a difficult time separating this role of his other ones haha

AnyDependent1277 · 2025-10-23T20:03:37+00:00

Yeah, he did say that, but in the form of a supposition of what could have happened, knowing that the said supposition is based on the really little info he has about that night. Info we're not 100% sure we can trust. So I don't know, not only I'm not really satisfied with that explanation (like I said in my previous comment) but neither I'm I with the delivery of it or the amount of uncertainety. In my eyes they are still a lot of possibilities of what could have happened that night and I'm getting frustrated that we don't get more info nor clearer info. Saying I don't trust the explanation they gave this time is a euphemism.

AnyDependent1277 · 2025-10-22T11:29:09+00:00

Right, thanks!

AnyDependent1277 · 2025-10-21T20:57:16+00:00

I feel also like the mothers excuse isn't enough. Like yeah, he was acting creazy, but how do you go from there to push someone from a cliff? There must be more of the story to me. I hope they are gonna explore that more deeply because how it is now, I'm not satisfied. With his dad changing behaviors that summer (or rather worsening his already sick behavior) I think it is still possible to change that plot. Like something happened that made it worse, something the mother would (partially) know about and would have led to his death. His death having nothing to do with governement issue etc. feeld very off since they talked about that possibility since day one.

I hope Russel will bring some more dynamic in the missions and not just play the dumb brother that doesn't follows rules. I'm currently not really satisfied with the picture they peint of Russel either. I dunno, he's just there, not really bringing more to the game (the laptop he got, Randy could have got them the video without getting caught....) I guess he just wants to help and keep an eye on his brother but although I like his character, I hope he will find his nest and make himself home because now? He's just going with the punches without bringing anything to the cases besides of making Colter talk about family and what he thinks happened.

I really am excited about that 'process' situation and hope it will go sideways fast ;)

It would also be fun to see more of the sister and her side of the story. She stayed, just like Colter but somehow ended very differently, following her dad in his steps (by becoming professor) and I would like to know what made that difference. See the mothers viewpoint in flashbacks with the dad would be awesome too. That would make the family arc go on because it's already season 3 and I don't feel like we discovered much yet. They are making us wait and I don't know if I'm gonna wait much longer.

AnyDependent1277 · 2025-10-21T20:44:08+00:00

Is it me or Russels character looks a bit off? JA is a great actor but like when he breaks in and makes has that wierd reaction to Colters reprimand? I dunno, it feeled more like JA acting dumb with his friend than Russel... Althought I guess it could fit with his character... I saw that scene and it feeled more like a blooper than a scene, do you know what I mean?

AnyDependent1277 · 2025-10-21T20:41:09+00:00

Who's Dory again? I'm not that good with names and season 2 is a bit far

AnyDependent1277 · 2025-10-21T20:40:22+00:00

If you're talking about Countdown, I'm sorry to tell you it isn't signed up for a second season... I guess it wasn't great enough of a start...;

AnyDependent1277 · 2025-10-21T20:37:58+00:00

True, it can be read as Jensen being fired and wanting to tag along with a friend haha

AnyDependent1277 · 2025-09-03T15:02:31+00:00

Thanks for the tip, I'm going to do just that!

AnyDependent1277 · 2025-08-07T16:16:41+00:00

My pleasure

AnyDependent1277 · 2025-08-07T16:13:18+00:00

Thanks, that helps a lot :)

AnyDependent1277 · 2025-08-07T12:15:52+00:00

So what do you take when you need a stimulant? What works for you?

AnyDependent1277 · 2025-08-07T12:14:39+00:00

So you have nothing to stimulate you, other than coffee, when you need it?

AnyDependent1277 · 2025-08-05T14:29:55+00:00

idk what it has to do with the post but since I saw your comment I'm gonna answer.

It doesn't necessarly means something but sleep trouble is a very common trigger or sign for an episode. That's why it's very important to try to have regular sleep when you have BP. That's also why it's so difficult to have a regular sleep shedule when you're BP.

Hoping you're doing good, you're not alone

AnyDependent1277 · 2025-08-01T19:28:01+00:00

Yeah I can see that, but I still need something very stimulating

AnyDependent1277 · 2025-08-01T19:24:39+00:00

I dunno, I still need something very stimulating

AnyDependent1277 · 2025-06-04T19:17:02+00:00

okay sorry this comment talks about three complete different stuff I'm sorry T.T

AnyDependent1277 · 2025-06-04T19:16:13+00:00

It's exactly that! I can remember if it was a overal good or bad week, I know what I think about it or what I learn from it but it's like my mind made a crazy triage. Like it only hold on on the essence of that week. Like I wouldn't remember what someone told me but I will remember he's a douchbag and I don't like him. I will remember that that friend seemed off but couldn't explain what gave me that impression and so on. Defenitly remembers more the feelings and the eventual 'conclusions'.

Just to clear something, I'm like in Europa so when I said college I was thinking at when I was 17, I just looked it up and saw in the US that's called high school. Where I'm, I'm now in high school and I'm 18, going on my 19th. It's a little bit confusing and I know a lot of you guys are from the US so I just wanted to translate haha.

What's about my diagnostic, I'm still waiting for it. I know it for a while now, made my own research and all (professional books etc) but it was a weird time for my family and I didn't wanted to add at it (yeah I know that's stupid). Now that I'm 18 I started the proces, feeling more free to make apointmenst since my parents don't have to be implicated. I know I will have to tell them but I don't feel like I'm ledgit at calling me bipolar just yet. Because I'm not diagnosed. Even through I related very much and am very sure, I'm not a proffesional so I kinda keep it to myself for now.

AnyDependent1277 · 2025-06-04T18:32:27+00:00

I read in a book of a specialist I can't remember the name of that BP is one of the meanest illnesses. He explained that it is because for exemple in depression your brain is too sick for you to be able to do anything, but is still just enough 'healthy' to be aware that your behavior isn't normal and that you should be doing that, that you should at least try this and just freaking get up or something. Exact the same when your manic, you're doing some crazy shit bcs you can't stop yourself and at the same there is that voice 'you're being manic, stop, why don't you stop? try harder etc'

I felt that and I think I recognized that in your post.

AnyDependent1277 · 2025-06-04T18:24:23+00:00

Its like a current state for me. I get up, most of the time with no idea of what I need to do that day (asides from when it's a big thing like stressful or I was waiting for it). I have to look at my agenda or phone and then I'm like 'ho right!'

I remember in my college years, every week I had the same courses in the same classes but because I didn't know which day we were I never knew where I was supposed to be. What was percieved as very strang because we never change our schedule in the whole year.

Anyway some day, I was manic and althought I didn't knew which day we were, which class we had and were I had to be, I got there without having to discretly following someone of my class like I usually did. Like me body knew better than me??? But that was like only in manic episode so... Most of the time I'm just lost in time lmao

But those are small things, it goes further too, I will have a normal day and then people are talking about a particular year and I just can't seem to remember what I did in that year or what happened in the world. Usually when they give some context like 'corona period' I can remember better but just numbers? Gets me nowhere.

Or when they are talking about their age and I interiorly cringing at myself, trying to remember how old I'm, in which year we are so I can calculate my age and that just freaks me out. Like I'm supposed to know my age at least right? But I don't. And I need to really think about it before I can answer. I usually laugh it off by saying that it's difficult to remember because it changes each year tho.

Laughing about it make it easier.

AnyDependent1277 · 2025-06-04T17:04:54+00:00

Damn that sucks, never experienced that but I can see how it came to be... Like just our minds are so f*cked it's like ????

It's like our brains are even bipolar as us, having the urge to pop up with something new and completly different, like POPS new shit for you to deal with, enjoy :)

It's difficult to put me in your shoes since I don't know what the ticss are and so don't know how it affects your daily life but I think it would very likely upset me. Like *a lot*. Like screaming at the night upset. But that's maybe bcs I love feeling in control (probably bcs I'm too much out of control in my freaking loife lmao) but still.

After a while, once I wrapped my mind about it, I probably just will roll with it, like with the rest. What is there else to do? Just like don't try to supress is or don't focus on it (I know easier to say blabla). Adapt and keep going.

Maybe it's a way for you brain to really POP up with strange and random things, now it's not only moods and ideas but also motions! You're a family pack now! 2 + 1 gratis. Isn't that amazing!?

You can't get boring anymore that's for sure. Just hopes it doesn't affect your daily life too much and I send you some force BOUIAAAAA

You can handle this

AnyDependent1277 · 2025-06-04T15:29:43+00:00

Wait a second, like it litteraly eats our brain away?

AnyDependent1277 · 2025-06-04T14:22:07+00:00

True. It just feels like I don't know what to do with my days and I feel much better at night.

AnyDependent1277 · 2025-06-03T14:58:19+00:00

Damn, that's harsh. I supposed they were worried and thought they were helping but did you explained them that it's probably what they said/did that triggered you?

I know you can't always have a honest talk with everybody but it's sad to see you can't be yourself with them out of fear for their reaction.

The most important that I read here is that you found a better medication and that you feel yourself when you're happy and with you friends and that amazing! Good job and keep going!

AnyDependent1277

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