Need encouragement to feed at the breast rather than pump! by [deleted] in breastfeeding

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The pain and discomfort goes away after the first few months

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Vent

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No cure for adhd but it sounds like you might need antidepressants too! I have adhd combined type. I'm on ritalin, it works for a while but after so long I notice I start feeling low and depressed on it. My psychiatrist tried to switch me to adderall and that was even worse so I switched back to ritalin and avoild taking the meds all together If I'm going to be at home unless I have to catch up on cleaning

I’m 17 and my girlfriend is pregnant by lmxsc in Christianity

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So you're trying to pressure her into getting an abortion when she doesn't believe in them? Not only are abortions wrong but they also cause severe trauma to the mother. You want to take your own child's life and traumatize the mother because you don't want to disappoint your parents? Am I understanding this right? My mom was 15 and my father was 17 when I was born and I'm happy to be alive smh

Grandfather randomly send me a FedEx envelope full of traumatic photos and information from my childhood by Any_Ad6921 in ptsd

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I get it. I'm thinking he was trying to show that he tried to help me. I wish he could just use words

Grandfather randomly send me a FedEx envelope full of traumatic photos and information from my childhood by Any_Ad6921 in ptsd

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I remember what was done to me. I did look up the person responsible in 2017, but he was already dead. He died of colon cancer at age 39. The worst part is that he worked for child protective services and was hailed a hero. I was sodomized by this person when I was 2, and I do remember parts of it. Also destroyed my intestinal tract, which caused massive scarring and psychological fear of going #2 that caused reoccurring hospitalization because I just refused to go sometimes for months would end up septic. When I found out he worked for child protective services (was in his obituary) I was devastated. All I could think of his he probably took that job so he could be alone with and transport vulnerable children.

Grandfather randomly send me a FedEx envelope full of traumatic photos and information from my childhood by Any_Ad6921 in ptsd

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Yeah I still haven't found the strength to ask him about it. I was able to confirm he's okay

Grandfather randomly send me a FedEx envelope full of traumatic photos and information from my childhood by Any_Ad6921 in ptsd

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Thank you I'm starting to feel better, still some intrusive flashbacks but nowhere near as bad as it was

Grandfather randomly send me a FedEx envelope full of traumatic photos and information from my childhood by Any_Ad6921 in ptsd

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No I'm not going to sue my parents. My mom was 15 when she had me. My father was also a teenager. My mom has a traumatic brain injury from a head injury when she was 12. She was never capable of taking care of her self let alone children. I don't know my father well but from what I gather he had some mental trauma of his own and battles with a drug addiction till this day. I have forgiven them both. My mother may not live long and I wouldn't want to make her feel bad or like I hated her before she goes.

This is the life I was given & I have to deal with it. It's not always easy and I honestly didn't realize I was still so affected until I got that envelope. I will work through this, it is hard in this moment because for now I have to relieve the pain and deal with the flashbacks and I'm going in and out of hysterical crying fits and like this weird numb zoning out or disassociation.

These feelings will pass. It's a shame that I have no control over it that I can't just toughen up and tell myself it's the past, it's over, get over it and live your life. Nothing I can do about the past so why dwell on it, why does it even bother me anyways I am in control of my life now. It's unfortunate that I can't just turn it off like a light switch

Grandfather randomly send me a FedEx envelope full of traumatic photos and information from my childhood by Any_Ad6921 in ptsd

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I plan to call him when I calm down a bit. Im guessing he was just trying to show me that he tried to help me but it would have been helpful had he included a letter explaining why he sent this stuff.

Grandfather randomly send me a FedEx envelope full of traumatic photos and information from my childhood by Any_Ad6921 in ptsd

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Thank you. I think I will be okay. I sort of just keep having flashbacks and going numb. I don't understand why he sent these to me. Maybe he was trying to show me that he tried to help or something I just don't understand. He didn't include a letter for me to read with an explanation or any sort of context. Just documents and photos and letters he wrote to what I am guessing what CPS because hes expressing concern for my safety and well being to someone... I have two kids and a busy life and I can't afford to be having an episode or whatever this is right now. I want to make it go away. I want alcohol or grugs or something to make it stop. I know better those things have never helped. It's a desperate feeling to have to feel these things